Shopz N cuzzie Wedding Day

hmmmm.....today went out with nick,divya,law,codi n jon..
nick pick me up from my house about 11am..ahah..
tooo late ody...
we planning dat we want to go 1B but cant...cause the timing not suitable
so we just watch movie at cp....we watch Orphan AGAINNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN
sooo i just have to paid up rm4 for the ticket..the rest they pay for me....
AHHAHHA
neway..after that we went to old station.........everyone seems like awkward.....
welll ....din really mixed up so well
all quite ..except me,carlissa n meryl..ahah
talk bout outfit...wad we wanna wear during our cuzzie wedding
ahaahha...

5pm like dat we went back follow our aunt.......
i only have 40minutes to get ready........n carlissa n meryl keep on screaming 'CEPATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT'....LOL...uselesssssssss babi..XDDDD..dun angry when u see dis....XD

HAHAHA..den after that i went to carlisssa house to get ready again..lol...
7pm like dat...we went to 1st wedding..quite lame.....boreddddddddddddddddddddddddd
den 2nd wedding okokla....ahaah....

heheheh..nothing to do...den ss loh

ayerrrrr....that hand..==....carlissa's hand...

hehehehe..cuzzie forever

This time my face so red..dun know y..i just drank 2glass of wine

Today saw something disturbing..lol

hmmmm

i dun know hw to described my feeling..first im quite ok...but after that..that feeling...feeling that i cant described..hmmmm......

but it makes me uncomfortable when thinkin bout it

hmmmm,

i really tot i get over it..but am i????

i dun think so..

hmmmmm

but guess what...

i will forgt bout it...

Wednesday :) shopping wid Anita

Try hard to be happier den ever
:)

woke up about 7.30am...cause anita sms me..n tell me dat shes goin to my house.......n shes finally can out.....ahah....before that we having so much trouble when we planning goin out....

her father dun really like her to go out..

but after that..she told her father that she want to buy some bag...den finally she can

we get ready in my house............................

we wearing same colour..BLUE..her fav colour..but not mine

have so much fun.....we gt ss...as in take pic in my house by using my webcam laptop

We went to eat then we go find some bag..but cant find it...nothing fit her taste..well im just helping her..seems like ders a lot of nice bag..but hat can i say...shes choosy..lol..

HMMM..after that we....we went to kbox..ahahha....again...we sang sad song...

lol

ahahahahaha

den after that we went to SIN WANG...

wuwuwuwuwuwuwuwwu

den everything flashback

my FIRST date wid Himmm...A...

and First date wid himmmmmm...J.......

everythin started right there

hmmmmmm

T.T

nvmmmmmmmmmm

at least i gt ss there with anita my best test fren

anyway...................now im sounds little bit no mood...

know y...............................

i hate people lie to me..............!!!!!!!!!!!!

anyway..for get it

hmmmmmmmm

'Doushite Kimi wo Suki ni Natte Shimattandarou?

dats mean why did i love you...i got it from the korean song..DBSK..

niceeeeeeeee song..but kinda sad

hmmm

TOday..

today i went out wid my fren soh pei yi...

but before that i hang out little while wid meryl my loveeely cuzzie n along wid her frens.

we went to 'kedai sasau'lol..actually i dun know whats the name of the restaurant but its located at groundfloor centrepoint...i think everyone know la..lol

2pm like that pei yi arrived then we go bu tickets...

we watch I LOVE U BETH COOPER

aahaah...

the movie started at 3.25..so thats mean theres a lot of time for us to go other places n have a drinks...

we have a nice conversation at kebab.....

tok bout vacation.family.frens....n others..hehehe

ermm..bout the movie..i love u beth cooper..

its nice,,

its about a guy in loved wid this hot girl name beth cooper..

its been almost 5 years i think(according to him cause he say for all his highschool life)

den during his graduate dat...when the time he gve a speech to the student...he admit that he inloved wid beth

ahah..then theres the problem get started

lol

niceeeee.............

anyway..i din make it to finish the movie..my aunt called me to inform dat were goin back ody..what a disaster..huhu

hmm.now lookin forward for tomorrow..cause tomorrow im goin out wid anita..ehheheheehhehehe

lolxxxxxxxxxxxx...............

Decide to wait.........

Oceans apart day after day

and I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line

But it doesn't stop
the pain If I see you next to never,

then how can
we say forever? Wherever you go, Whatever you do, I will be right
here waiting for you, Whatever it takes, or how
my heart breaks, I will be right here waiting for
you.. I took for granted all the times That I thought would last somehow I hear the laughter and I taste the tears But I can't get near you now

Oh can you see it baby You've got me goin crazy

I wonder how we can survive this romance But in the end if I'm with you I'll take the chance Oh can't you see it baby? You've got me goin' crazy

THINKING OF YOU

Comparisons are easily done

Once you've had a taste of perfection

Like an apple hanging from a tree

I picked the ripest one

I still got the seed

You said move on Where do I go

I guess second best

Is all I will know

Cause when I'm with him

I am thinking of you

Thinking of you What you would do if

You were the one Who was spending the night

Oh I wish that I

Was looking into your eyes

You're like an Indian summer

In the middle of winter

Like a hard candy With a surprise center

How do I get better

Once I've had the best

You said there's

Tons of fish in the water

So the waters I will test

He kissed my lips

I taste your mouth

He pulled me in I was disgusted with myself

Cause when I'm with him

I am thinking of you

Thinking of you What you would do if

You were the one Who was spending the night

Oh I wish that I

Was looking into...You're the best

And yes I do regret

How I could let myself

Let you go

Now the lesson's learned

I touched it I was burned

Oh I think you should know

Cause when I'm with him

I am thinking of you

Thinking of you What you would do if

You were the one Who was spending the night

Oh I wish that IWas looking into your eyes

Looking into your eyes Looking into your eyes

Oh won't you walk through And bust in the door And take me away

Oh no more mistakes

Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay...

Bored like hell T.T

I tought that today would be fun...
but all of our plan dat we mad..cancellll
haix..parents
wad we can say to them.they wont understand anyway
dey only know dat they r d only person in the world or universe r true bout everything
what i mean is hello..we need life ok?
hmmmmm
me,meryl n carlissa plan dat were gonna go to citymall but no transport..haixxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
den all day long im at my cuzzie house watch AMAZING RACE..
yerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
y soooooooooooooooooooooo boreddddddddddddd o today
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
mayb thats all

waaaaaaaaaaa...stupid me..lolx

haix
today
me n my fren make someone sad
we didnt mean to hurt her
its just dat we have to keep that secret so she wont hurt
but without realise..day by day..our relationship become weaker n weaker
hope she can forgive us
dont want to loose u as our bestfriend..
i know that bestfren will tell each other secret...
but this time we got excuse y we didnt tell u
we really dont want u to get hurt
hmmmmm


funny luhr today....
hehe....
during recess me n Anita went to canteen
den suddenly...ders he go...near canteeen C..standing......perfect..as in PERFECT..lol
first time saw him ody stunt n blur..
ahahha
I think he's notice that i keep on lookin at him..
at first i tought its just my imagination..den suddenly my fren say.....he notice..cause after that he keep on lookin at our place
waaaaaaaaaaaa
almost wan to fainttttttttttttttttttt
XDDDDDDDDDDD
hehehe

dats all i guess

7things i hate about u :) nice song..lolx

I probably shouldn't say thisBut at times I get so scared
When I think about the previous
Relationship we've shared
It was awesome but we lost it
It's not possible for me not to care
And now we're standing in the rain
But nothings ever gonna change until you hear, my dear
The 7 things I hate about you! You're vain, your games, you're insecure
You love me, you like herYou make me laugh, you make me cry
I don't know which side to buy
You're friends, they're jerks
When you act like them, just know it hurts
I wanna be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love youIt's awkward and silent
As I wait for you to say
What I need to hear now
Your sincere apology
When you mean it, I'll believe it
If you text it, I'll delete itLet's be clear
Oh I'm not coming back
You're taking 7 steps here
The 7 things I hate about youYou're vain, your games, you're insecure
You love me, you like her
You make me laugh, you make me cry
I don't know which side to buy
You're friends, they're jerks
When you act like them, just know it hurts
I wanna be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love you
And compared to all the great things
That would take too long to write
I probably should mention the 7 that I like
The 7 things I like about you!
Your hair, your eyes, your old Levi's
When we kiss I'm hypnotized
You make me laugh, you make me cry
But I guess that's both I'll have to buy
Your hands in mine when we're intertwined, Every thing's alright
I wanna be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I like the most that you do
You make me love you

yish...fine la...dont care about it anyway

hmmmm................................

din realise many time i posted today
haha..lol....but stilllllllllllllllll....really pissed me off...
fine la u...............................................................!!!
hish

MUM!!!!!!!!!!STOP VIEW MY BLOG!!!!!GIVE UR DAUGHTER PRIVACY PLEASE!

hope u c dis.......
stop c my blog pls...............
i know anytime u will c dis..OMG

miss someone :)

AHAH..

din go to chool today

i need to do my physics notes...

if i din do it ..my marks will be deduct 20 marks

wuhuu

better i start do it later

but now need to bloggin

get news upadate

hrmmm..

last night i slept about 10pm

lol

sooooooooooo freakin early ryte

hrmmm

lazy o wan to do the notes

soo many ohwr!!!!!!!!

plus i miss someone!!!!

wuhuhu...

wont tell that person oso

.....

am i really that childish?

i think so...erm

anyway...

i dont i can change it

cant wait holidayyyy

i wan to go out everyday!!!!!

out wid frens

XDDDD

den shopping!!!!!

den erm

singggggg..kbox

ahahahaha

erm..dats all i think

kk..tata...

after play my facebook game

need to do the fuckinstupidnotes==

bb

wuhuhu...

miss '.........' T.T

lol

klalaaaaaa

laallalala

byebyebeyeybeyyebybyebybyebybeybeybe

XD

wan change everything

yesterday i was soo moody...nver been like that before

and i think i hurt my friends feeling..T.T...sorry...

ANYWAY..

i was thinking to change everything

what i mean is.

these few days ive been sooooooooo freakin sad bout that ahrggg..

promise me dat promise me this

And i was like actually believe that..what the hell??

hahaha

now i realise

i have to move on

click it if u wanna c larger :)

Anyway i just upload all my photo..my photo dat i took when my bday sweet 16 hehehe so happy that day..i do wadever i want...n i got over30 present..most of it are dolls.... i love it

i still remember all the things my fren gave to me..heheh,.....neway,,i enjoy it sooooo much......thanks to my sister...i mean my both sister...they spend about RM1500 on my sweet16bday...heheh....

now i realise..that i want to forget everything that make me sad....really need to move on yahr..hehe :)..gud luck to me yahr fren

went out wid frenz...KIMMY,KUNG KUNG,KEVIN N unknown XP

TOday i went out with my fren

we went to pizza hut..then me n kimmy went to shopping together

we bought dress

mind blue n her's yellow

that dress is freakin hot wid her

mind too...hahahhaahaha...jkjk

anyway...

lotta people in our group have love problem

lol

Kev had a fight with her gal.

kimmy with..heheh..

den nick cant go out wid her gal

n me....of coz same problem

ahhaha

I almost forgot my purse at pizza hut

crazy girl

thank god..kim saw my purse,,,

im so freakin clumsy

T.T

HMMMMM

he didnt me pun

he didnt sms me

ish ish

nvm

like kimmy say...

he's not worth

theres lotta fish in the water

ahhaha

shes tellin me the truth

but only the second best i will know

Kevin n Nick go back early

so its just me n kim

we went to starbuck

we tok tok lotta things

bout her life

bout my life

bout her special one

bout my nonspecial one

lol

quite fun

we gt online again after that

after that her mum pick us at citymall

den//

dats all

hehehe

hOPE someday this necklace i will give the key to someone

so i'll keep the heart than that person keep the key

hehehe

killin me

Its killin me...

its the hardest thing for me to do

to turn around and pretend that i dont love u

for all this while i tot u really the one

How come i feel that...after i forgive you.

u leave me again..

or is it im the only one who think in that way

or am i the one who act Drama queen here

if yes..

Maybe because i love u so much

if yes

den im goin to love u less

everything remind me of you

never think that i will felt this way

my heart beating so fast when i saw ur name

my heart beating so fast when i know u have someone special

special..special as in ur love one

is it because of me

or

is it because u change your mind

or

is it because i dont deserved you

you told me you loved me.

you promised me that ur not goin to hurt me

you talk sweet to me

you make me feel that im special eventhough im not

but now

your just one of my sweet memory

no matter i still love you

i dont think you wouldnt care

you tell me that you love me

but i dont hink i can believe it or not

ive been hurt twice

no more drama

my eyes so tired,everyday its leaking

for once

i want to say goodbye

but i just cant

cause i still love you

no matter how hard i want you to felt

the same way like i do

but i know

it will never work

people wouldnt fallinlove twicw with the same person

but somehow.i through it

my friend keep on support me

youve been too good to me

but

~past is past~

cant you see u mean to me

all my smile

all my laugh

i fake it

cause deep inside

im still hurt

i love you..please dont leave me again

Just now he got find me...he says sorry..

that time i just woke up ..is about 10pm..i slept about almost 2hours ody..

my fren anita called me..after that i realised there are 5unopen sms..

suddenly i saw his name written in hp..i cant believe it was him...the 4 sms i just ignored...

i open his sms first...

by the time i open it..my tears start fallin..

im so sad,happy n angry

but its about 90%is happy

because i still love him and want to be with him

i really love him from the bottom of my heart.

i think bout him everyday...

u ask for forgivness n i forgive u

u say u love me n i admit i still love u oso..i want to be with you n u want to be with me oso...

but u just want to be fren.so i just say ok...

but deep down..i dun want to be just frens with u..i want to be with u...

but u say earlier this will nvr work.cz somehow u will go to aus...

to be honest...i dont take a damn all of it...u go to moon...u go to other planet....i dont care..i just want to be with u..................

but i don think u understand....

this love is killin me...ur attitude is killin me

everything bout u is killin me..

but guess what..i like it..

now were just fren but we still love each other..to me its better than nothing....

really really love u..

actually if u really love me...u will find way to work this out...

i used to call u my dear..i used to call u my love...

now i will controll myself by not callin u that

i will try my best to treat u like my fren..

no matter how hurt it is

I know theres something in the wake of your smile.I get a notion from the look in your eyes, yea.Youve built a love but that love falls apart.Your little piece of heaven turns too dark.Listen to your heartWhen hes calling for you.Listen to your heartTheres nothing else you can do.I dont know where youre goingAnd I dont know why,But listen to your heartBefore you tell him goodbye.Sometimes you wonder if this fight is worthwhile.The precious moments are all lost in the tide, yea.Theyre swept away and nothing is what is seems,The feeling of belonging to your dreams.And there are voicesThat want to be heard.So much to mentionBut you cant find the words.The scent of magic,The beauty thats beenWhen love was wilder than the wind

Happy for my BestFrennnnnnnnnnnnnnn!!!!

hehe....
today im so hepy to my fren...
lol
got something happen...
well..its actually sooooooooooooo unbelieveable................
but no matter it is...im so glad to hear that..news...i think they will look good together..
hehe.each other wait for each other!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!XDDDDDD
nice o.................
heheheheheh
but got little bit jealous....cause its remind me of him...
now my fren got the feeling like..'waaaaa..cant believe dat boy as in perfect boy like me'
ahhah....got that feeling when im wid my ex...
hrmmm
but im scared my fren will get hurt....
just hope dat she will nt get hurt by that guy...but dont think he will.. :)
he look kinda good boy...

anyway...after this im goin to tuisyen
yerrrrrr..so lazyyyyy
wan stay at home sleep ohrrrrrrrrrrr
ermm

at school sooo bored oso...
din learn anything besides BI..
erm..........
yup...nothing more
just that thing........
heheh

I HATE GO TO SCHOOL

i really hate go to school
damn assH3le dat boy.////
really pissed me off........
who do he think he is...HE GO N SCRACTH MY TABLE
such an assssssssssssssssssssssss
really dunnoe y he did that....
crazy thin fuckin boy............
if i dun have a heart...i probally ody write ur name here....n show it to everyone...
hope he see this....
IF ITS UR FAULT JUST ADMIT IT....!!!!!better than we caught u lied...
say people fake...please look at the mirror...seeeeeeeeeeeee ur face..see ur self....n u will see someone that trying to be cool...wan to be the bully....but guess wat...ur just lonely boy who want some attention....even ur fren says that...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
last time was different..mayb im blind that time....but helloooooooooooo..that is last year..........
Really glad to hear that ur frens themselves tell me that u r nothing widout the..n u just wan some attention.........

gosh......u really pissed me off//
be mature for sake!!!!

WAKE UP MADELINE~!

today is fine...............

I woke up soo late today.yesterday i slept about 3.30 ody ==......................................my gosh...i only have 30 minutes to get ready..

im soooo sleepy....at my claz i sleep for 3period...damn..ahha

i sleep during bi n bm...

While i still sleeping.my fren suddenly give me signal..like kicking my leg..den im blur...all the my clazmate look at me n so r d teacher..den my fren beside me Serena ask me just answer RM30...actually i have no idea wad d eacher talkin about........den i just hear dey all scream..madeline one month Rn200 TUH..den i was...huh...well..dun care..i just continue my sleep.....after i woke up..i ask my frens wads it all about..then they say the teacher ask me how much i spend one month to reload...then i understand

ahah

lol

i think my excused go to school is chit chat wid frens only..

==

besides that i gt nothing to do...

today...teacher john caught me n anita escaped....sooooooooooooooooooooooo embarassing.....my goshhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...

aahaha

neway..he let us go....looks like we gt luck this time.......

after school........my fren suddenly tell me he gt saw my ex or still bf ...wid some girl.....n he's wearing the same shirt when he first date with me............

after knowing that.........

i feel my life soooooo over duper sad........................................................

haix..nvm him.........

haixxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

forget bout him idiot madeline

><

Out wid sista...

not clear ==

TOday was fun..lol......went out with my sister...

i slept about almost 3am last night..chatting with my fren n watchin tv.....

My sister awake me about 9.30 am...WTF im nt freakin enough sleep...

but i didnt complain cause i scared dey wont bring me out with them later..lol

After we get ready..we went to wawasan cz my sister have appoinment with the clinique(dun know how to spell the brand) for face product....

I wait about 2hours....................So boreddddddddddddddddddddd...they discust bout that bout this..all about faceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee....totally woman...

after that we get voucher RM50..every rm 100 u purchase u can get free rm10 voucher....

den as ussual..i take the voucher from them..lol..but i didnt use it..

hmm....

Haiz..cnt believe that for all this time..me n him still together.. i really tought we break...but after my fren ask him..he say we still together....i dun know wether i wan to happy or mad...

i think its 50% 50%\\

i still didnt get it....!!!

im so freakin confused...T.T

H1N1!!!

our school soon will be closed because of H1N1....

2ppl were suspected h1n1....n dey just next to my claz...scary!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

lol

MOrning

~announcement~'perhatian kepada murid,hari ini kami akan mulakan memakai mask disebabkan h1n1'

welll...not exactly that way..

but no one take a damn bout it...

but after that .....gt news about there some student positive h1n1...

den all of us..wear the mask and freaked out...

ahahaha

actually...im the one who freaked out oso..same wid anita..hahah..

we dont care bout anything...we just wear the mask while the other dont want to wear it cause they say they look ugly when they wear it...well...'HELLOO GIRLS..UR LIFE!!!!BECAUSE OF UR PRETTY OR NON PRETTY FACE U DONT WANT TO WEAR IT TO CARE UR REPUTATION' seriously..Woman..u gt some problem

lol

but neway..dont care bout them..lets move on..

Now im sick..its been twodays i didnt go to school..

im scared of that H1N1 thingy

Thank god..my mum n my dad let me didnt go to school..

lol

i think thats all for now...

need to study...its been to long i didnt touch my book n my pen....

THeres nothing else i can say

I delete some of my post this recently...cause my fren Yuhua a.k.a panda a.k.a yuyu(lol) ask me to delete it...he say its for my own gud..hmmm...mayb its true..T.T
My fren gt a bad news to me yesterday..He say that 'J' give his reason y he suddenly ignored me while we still together...he say that he gt his own reason....He says that his hp got problem than he cannot contact with me..if he really want to contact with me..he will find a way to talk to me..but instead of finding it.he choosed not to stay in touch with me...when i think about it..He's really dont want to get involved in our relationship anymore..he actually can talk to me with it..'Hp cant be used anymore'that is a seriously the most terrible excused i ever heard before..
He even tell my fren by texting him that he know what im been through and he understand..
SERIOUSLY..U DUN KNOW WHAT IVE BEEN THROUGH...!!!.
tell the truth..When he did that to me..each time some other guy ask me out i will denied n give dem a lot of excused..wanna know why.??cz he havent tell me the exact result..he just leave me here n make me confused.....thats explain y i have been acting strange and aggresive these days...
I still dont know why he did that to me...is it because he goin to uk soon?he found someone new?or he just not in to me anymore?
my fren really mad at him...he told me that he was sorry cause he the one who intro me to him at first.....He want me to confront wid J...but i think its not goin to work....we cant force love..
but to be honest..i dont blame it on him....he such a good fren to me just like my brother..and actually..i want to thank him cause now i learn my lesson... :)

Study mood :)

CRAZY ME!!!
haha

hehe...

long time no post..hmmm

anyway..dis few days..i busy improving my physics subject and my other school project too..

ahhaha

SHOW OFF~~~~~~~~haha..XD

Anyway..i got the mood to study cause i when i study i forget bout him...if I watch tv n everything..its remind me of him.everything remind me of him..its hurt..haix

so the only way is.....i study,study,study n study....bored actually...but thats all i can do..hrm...

SCHOOL~

my school life was okay i guess..but got this one person in my class r soooo annoying..its like i want to kill him if i have the guts..seriously..its like..when i c his face..i really want to throw something at him..grrrrr

but other than that..nothing happen..ohr ya...i forgt...My fren cried the other day..haiz..i really dun know what to do..both of my fren have a fight..i dun know which one to support..but i really cant believe my fren's ex bf sooooooooo freakin mean...he think he soo hensome untill he called my fren like dat...i think my fren 1000000000000000000% deserved more better den him..dat boy the one who is fuckin ugly..not my fren...seriously!!!!!!its like...grrrr

I just knowing that la salle n stella marris was closed because of H1N1..thats scary...hope they all ok.....need to be becarefull this time...for now..i dun wan to go out..

This few days..i addicted to Super junior...!!!!i love them.....THEY CAN DANCE N THEY R HOT.lol...after watch they mv 'sorry sorry' super junior..i really like dem..den i just figured out..what type of guys i actually like..lol...n that is..Tall,fair,stylish,can dance,play basketball(bonus)..ahahahahaha...n of coz..caring n loving..Okay..its weird i wrote this on my blog.its supposed to be secret isnt it?lol...nvm

hmmm..........bored bored...okkkkk

anyway..thats all.ahahha..........i think..

hehehehhe.

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