Cloudy Day

What a cloudy day

ergh..dont know what to do

yesterday filled my time with cleaned up my room
lol.at least got something to do huh?

anyway.i got nothing to do today besides watching tv

watched ''Home alone'' just now

GOSH..i dont know why..i never get bored with it

i watched it more than 10 times already and i never get bored with it

Rrrrrrrrrrr

Damn cold

its goin to rain heavily later

For sure

damn cloudy and its dark here

i havent eat my lunch ><

damn hungy ..i just dont know what i want to eat

ermm..nevermind..lol

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NEW MOON..love it <333...

Yesterday i got my reward X)

i went to Chinese Chamber Persatuan Tiong Hua

they gave me rm100

HEHEHEHHE

Damn happy

After that me n cecilia direct to Centrepoin

we watched New Moon..

GOSHHHHHHHH

its so Romantic

Really love love love New Moon

EDWARD AND JACOB

dan hot and super duper romantic

I <3>

What i meant is

They say words that human beings cant say to their love one

one of them is a warewolf and the other one is Vampire

goshhh

wanna be in Bella place for once

ahahahah

How i damn freakin wish

my bf is a vampire

lol

ermmmmm

Yesterday my sister scolded at me

okaaaay

actually i kinda realise that i did changed

erm

attitude????

yeah..i think so

when i was form1

i dont even care what i wear

i dont even wear make up

all i care is my studies

well..i did like someone when im in form1

its like daaaaa

im teenagers..!!LOL

anyway

what im trying to say here is

maybe i should change

i promised to my sister that i will change

ermmm

XP..but i must go to upperstar this wednesday

nothing can stop me

the only thing that can stop me is what i should wear on that day

still thinking about it

hmmmm

lol

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I WANT TO GO OUT!

seriously..i really want to go out

i mean whassup with this all fuckin drama

i really dont need this

i just need to relax

and fuckin no way this will ruin my whole holiday

theres another 1month

Why does everyone seems really enjoying to make my life so

misserable

I JUST WANT A HAPPY LIFE FOR SAKE

hope tomorrow will be okay

today really fuckinshit day

really pissed me off

totally no mood whole the time

just shoot me!!!

maybe u will happy

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

why?

i really need a break

i just hoping that i can turn back the time

there is so much i want to change in my life

i just realise something

people are selfish when its come to 'love'

even i admit its true

what i mean is

we risk our friendship our freedom just to feel how love can affect us

maybe im still young to say this

but i did felt it

and it doesnt seems magical enough to me

its nothing but hurting and destroy your heart into pieces

in our age they say

''boys are nothing but a heartbreaker''

i got it from my friends mom

and yeah..in our age

''everything is like the end of the world''

its damn true

got it from seventeen again

I think maybe there are some reason our parents wont let us dating untill we get old enough

and that is:

(a)they dont want us to date because they know it will affect our study

(b)scared that we will get hurt.because they been there done it

(c)they will spend a lot of money by paying the phone bill(LOL)

(d) maybe because the love us so much

Hrmmm......

i really dont know what i want exactly

GIRLS dont know what they want

u just have to figure out by yourself

sometimes when girl says 'no' sometimes its 'yes'

and ''yes'' will be ''definitely yes''

well..ive been told that u must choose that u will not lose

because u cant have everything in ur freakin life

dont take the chances cz u might feel the pain

SEEEEEEEEE!!!!i just writing my blog now n got upcoming message

then i was about to reply

then guess what my super duper dad scolding at me right now

WTF!!!

what i have to do beside this thing

you want me to study???

do i have to remind you that im holiday right now???

ohwrrr..i get it

maybe they want me to see their face 24/7

clap hands!!!!

my sister said that i changed

im the one change

or u the one who change?

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~Mdeline.J.Life.Love.Fren~

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Ev3rYday is suprising

On 26th of november

Happy Bday to Parvisher Kaur Gill

Went to her party

before the party.Me,kev,nick,and evon went to divya's hs

eheh...borrowed her cloths..because all of us

dont have indianish cloths look

well..FYI .the themes of the party is 'bollywood night'

everyone have difficulty by finding the right outfit for that day

but at last..we manage to find our own outfit

ANYWAY.

omg

im having so much fun

were dancing like non-stop

Parvisher damn pretty and beautifull that day

we're like damn craZy that night

everyone was hyper

lol..as in super duper hyper

then after that

we played the 'kahwin' 'cerai' and 'tunang' game

as usual..im the first one out from that game

ahha...its because im busy with my hp sms when they told us the rules of the game

but anyway

i have soo much fun

the food was great

we went back about 12am edy

everyone was like sad

we wanna dance more

party more

huhuu..lol........................

by the time i reached my house then direct went to sleep

i want moreeeeeeeee party!!!!!

On 27th november

i woke up like damn late..11am i think

feels erghh 'dont want to wake up'

hmmm

lots of suprises

i mean,,'good' and 'bad'

well..in my life..when there is good things goin there must be bad

i mean as in always like that

got one time

in my school

i was damn happy i dont know why

but i sang all day long...laughing like crazy gal

but the next thing is i cried like crazy

because i went to saloon that day then hairstylish cut my hair damn short

actually its not short but for me its short compared to last last time

lol

hmmm..nvm..what can i say

that is what we call life

when something is going on

i will go to my room bring along my laptop

loud up the music n play games there

all my problem will fade..

thats the best way for me to handle my problem

Anyway

i got few hp called from unknown number yesterday

he/she called me i think 3 times or 2 times i think...

he/she just listen to my voice then hung up..

same thing happen on 26th but now i know already who is it

but this time..emmm

Anyway..if i being murder then i got my proof here..lol

''negative thinking''

but honestly

next week i will enjoy untill no limit

must must must

lol

planning this monday want to go out at night with frens

crossed my finger hope my parents let me go

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FUN.TIRED.CRAZY

At last..

Feuhhhhh

So tired today

went out with

Nicholas

Oliver

Kevin

Jackson

Morgan

Crazy day we have there

but not good when its come to shopping part

lol

since i was the only girl..i have to follow them shopping

lame=.=

now i know boys r like girls when deir shopping

lol

i dun have nothing to do..so i just keep on doin the annoying sound untill someone angry...haahhah

Went to F.O.S

aS you can see

nick the one who shopz maniac

he bought lots of thing

lol

i only bought necklace


After that we went to growball pool

=))

but im kinda blur right there

dont know what to do

they all play pool

and i just sat there watching

lol

We also saw barth n others

but quite funny

want to learn how actually but quite shy ><

i wear dress must be awkward..lol

XD

aCTUAlly i have fun today

tomorrow hope the party goin to be great

weeeeeee

starting to love my holiday

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~Mdeline.J.Life.Love.Fren~

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Wakie wakie <333

n

wakie wakie everyone

cant sleep very well last night

maybe its because im not in the good mood =(

when im not in a good mood

i will treat everyone so bad

and its not me at all

im that kinda gal

that happy

owes

but its all my fault

maybe i think too much

plus.i just knew something

evethough its not my problem

eventhough its our past

but i just cant forget about it

i cant imagine that u with someone else

but i still care about it

im so down

feels that im really really

LONELY

feels lot better today

want to say sorry to everyone

for those who i offended last night

^^

hmmmmmmm.
soo hungry...

need to fing some food.

at night

my sister bring me to ate japanese food

errr...

not really into it

talking about japanese

remind me of something

hmm

not a good thing

but who cares anyway

im not really into japanese food this recently

i used to like it

but..

people change

yeahhhhhhh..PEOPLE CHANGE!

=.=

why is it happen again

i have enough with it
i mean WTF

this things

i mean

species

keep on coming in my life

erghh

forget about it

guess what

no more miss nice madeline

grrr

im so fuckin no mood

=.=

hope tomorrow will be great

forget about everything

wuwuwuwuwuuuw

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tata xoxo

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~Madeline.J.Life.Love.Fren~

Things come and go

LOVE TO TAKE PICTURE ON WEBCAM XP

fEeeeeuhhhhhh...........

its holiday but feels like hellday

maybe because im trapped in this four walls almost everyday

i dont know what to do beside chattin

sms-ing

call-ing

bor-ing

watch-ing tv

sleep-ing

LOL-ing

Now listening to Justin Bieber 'one time'

hmmm.....niceee song~~~

Anyway.i make huge changes on my blog =))

at last im done with it

now really feeling lonely-ing-ess-est

HUUHUUUuuuuu

But anyway..single is fun right?right ?right?

hmmm...

This recently i keep on thinking about the stupid things that happen to me....

its like soooo frustrating

dissapointing

confusing

useless

stupid

Maybe because i dont have things to do

thats why...is it??

erm......

THis Thursday have to attend my Friend's Birthday

''Parvisher Kaur Gill''=))

butttt..i dont know what to wear

=(((

because its Bollywood theme

i dont know where i can get that kinda outfit

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hmmmm...Anyway

i think i've been curse by someone

i mean

why i cant get long time period of relationship with someone

its always

3hours ]

1day ]

1week ]

2weeks]

3weeks]

1month]

Why ??????

Maybe because of me or them the one who cheated on me

well guess what..most of it because they cheated on me

they dont know that i knew about it

well.......

its kinda hurt

when my friend told me they saw my bf with someone else

thank god they are just my simple bf and nothing special

because i know someday they will cheat on me also

i mean..which guy who doesnt cheat on their gf

tell me if u found one =)

lol

but seriously.why they just cant be loyal with only one girl

is it hard?

well...

i can tell that more than half couple that i knew before broke up

because their bf cheated on them

hmmm...so unpredictable

well...

the best way is

''dont take it to0 serious when its come to relationship''

well...thats quite easy when you tell it to everyone

but when it come to me

its super duper hard

i mean

we are girls

just sweet talks from the guy

then our heart will melt

all their fault just flew away

ahahahha

funny when think about it

well

now im single

eventhough sometimes i quite lonely

but as long i didnt put myself into big risk

by lettin them to break my heart

then..just let it be

''two is better then one''

for girls its mean couple better then single

but maybe for guys

two girls better then one girl

LOL

no offence

im just making some statement here

so no hurt feeling yahr =))

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well......

boyfriends come and go but friends always be there for you

just want you to know that

it will gotta be awkward,girl.

but im just gonna wait untill u make the right decision

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tata...bb.

thats all for now

~Madeline.J.Life.Love.Fren~

guess that u want it to be end like this

keep on saying that i played u
keep on saying i cheated on u
i dont care because u have the right to angry at me eventhough i dn cheat or play u
i still wanna be friends with you
but guess what
u deleted me from your friendlist
please remember what u asked about me to my friend
and still can forgive you
because i care about you
but nevermind i guess that u want it to be like this
dont ever say i dont care.
if i dont care mayb i continue our relationship
i just dont u to get hurt
wish u have a gud life
n i do care bout u
hope u see this

i just dont want to hurt anyone T.T

seriously
im really a bad person
dats why i have to do some action now
so i wont hurt anyone
soooo
by doin that i have to brave myself n tell the person the truth
i cant live in a lie.
im just so sorry
just so u know
i dont want o hurt u ><
its not for my own good
but its for ur own good
i can see that u really serious in it
but the more serious u in it the moree i scared
its not that im not happy bout u serious in it
but i more scared that im goin to hurt u
the more longer the time i let it be
the more its hurt for you............
u told me that u wan me to hurt u
but that is not me
i dont like to hurt anyone
T.T


if u wanna hate me..den just hate me
but i just dont want to hurt you
i think i told u before
about i dun wan to hurt u
i know the feeling
dats y i dont want u to experience it
i really hope u can forgive me
im so sorry.
eventhough its hard for me to let u go
but that is the right desicion so i wont hurt u
i hope that we still can be friend
T.T
sorrryy
u will always be my baby prince

SAD =(

I feel that i want to cry so hard right now
i just knew something that i could never accept
its really make me sad
tell me its not true..pleaseee
tell me its not trueeeeeeeeeeeeeee
i never that tot that thing will happen in my life
i think its my fault.............
i dont want this to be happen
can God turn back the time
can He?
if yes....please!!!!!!!!!
T.T

Just enjoyed every moment of it :)

Wednesday

As you can see Danial removing the block with his shaking hands and smiley face...n nicholas face just cant wait to see the block fallin down

LOL

we have a lot fun played this game

soooo its a right decision for me to bring it at school :)

but guess whattt??

SPOTCHECK

were all panic..i mean i dun know why but my friend hide my game Jengga cause dey tought they will take it from us..lol...funny

N oliver..haixxxxxxxxxx..im the one who hide his phone....

=.=

but the mosttttttttttttttttttt fun thing is

my sister went to my school and met my teacher disiplin

welll i made a few mistakes

but she dont have to be rude to my sister

as u know my sister not that really friendly person.well shee is friendly but when it comes to rudeness..there she goes

girl power!lol

i dont know why but why the teacher always lied bout what i did in my school

i mean..hellooo..i nver wear mascara n eyeliner to my school..

n suprisingly my teacher said to my mum i wear it almost everyday n i was like wtf

no i wasnt

=='

but nvm

teachers will always be a teacher

if u know what i meant.nvm forget bout it :)

Afer came back from school

my dad wanna bring me to visit his mum

which is my grandma of course

Next day..THURSDAY

me n my 11 other friends went to 1borneo

we watched the 2012..scary...how i wish got he beside me that day....but what can i say..he's not mine..he's taken.nvm :(..

Anyway,before that...we went to kbox den play pool

lol

everyone dun know how to play

sot!!XD

tooo concentrate to watch the 2012 untill i forgot what time is it

its almost 5.30pm

n i was like OMG

my family dinner was like 7pm

sooo we decided to take the taxi or i can say van that cost rm70

expensive

but nvm

atleast we gt home on time

lol

After that nicholas,divya,jonathan.cfh wait their car in my house

sooo i just get ready n let them play my comp instead

lol

After dinner...me n my family went to vedablu to get some ice creammmyummy

actually dat day is my parents anniversary

congrats to them

:)))

On Sunday

Me n my sisters n SHana n Sherenna

went to 1Borneo again

seriously

im gettin bored with that place

XP

lol

though.Havin lot of fun there

LOL..me n my sis wearin the stupid xmast hat

XD

wInnie the poooh

i took the picture when we went to toys r us

siok oo..

XD

SPongebobbbbbbbbbbbbbbb

Me n My pretty sisterr xoxo

we went to New York restaurant for our lunch

yummyyyyyyy

:)))

XP

the next day

is Terribleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

i cannot register

my name been blocked by that teacherrrrrrrrrrr

grrr

have to go bilik disiplin

then register

lameeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

but after that is doneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

schooooool holidayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

Miss my Prince ><

heheeh
he sooo far away from here
huhu
miss him
he really have the everythings that i dream of to be my prince
haha
XD.......................................................................................
lol
this is the url of his blog http://jia0933-jstyle.blogspot.com/
hensome prince i have here
ahahah
XP

WOWeee

Found my Hensome Taiwanese Prince....
XD....
he so sweet....XD

feels like im in the drama....

I dont know why

but feels like im in the drama

or......do you ever heard of the new song Leona Lewis Happy ??

Check it out

it;s nice to hear

call me emotional but you never know i just been trough

but past is past right

:)

lazy to upload about our escape journey to 1b

this recently i owes n owes no mood

Last night i wanna go out....night out

but my sis wont let me follow her

sooo as usual,play comp online eat watchtv

daaaaaa

bored

everyone went out that night

left me at home lonely n undescribeable(i dun even know its a word o nt)

anyway

im confused now

tooooo much drama goin on in my life

i think i will change my middle name into drama

well what can i say

i trough it almost everyday

mayb like in hallmark channel owes says.'everyday is drama'

harh?funny

ermmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

tik tok

nvm

glad that i met lotta new friend

hope this holiday gonna be great

tata

Walk Away

Saturday.......

Did some changes on my hair

but not that obvious

Bored ><

Sunday

Woke up early in the morning to go church

my sister wan bring me to shopping wid her at wisma

so i tought just wisma =.=

Get ready 11am like dat....

At wisma we hav a lot of fun

well............not lot of fu..but stilll :)

suddenly my sister say she want to go warisan

And i dont know but deep down i dont want to go that place

i gota feeling dat somthng wrong goin to happen there

so i told my sister that actually i dont want to go there

she was like why?den i just nvm about it

mayb its just me

sooo

guess what

im true about it

saw with his new girl

'eventhough its killin me but im impressed'

actually i ahve a choice wether i want to passed them or just walk away

but i just past them

n tell u what...dat is the most hard things to do

and its sad

but its okay

past is past

So i just continue myself with happy face :)

but u nvr know what happen after that :(

huhu

let just i think him as not worth it..

so its wont hurt me anymore when think about it yahr

Tuesday



Didnt go to school on monday ..lol..so i missed chemist n physics

so i decided to come on tuesday which is today

nothing much special bout today

haixxxxxxxxxxxxx

today we resit exam for biology...u cn seee all the student from form4 A still sleepin.gave up on bio i think n so am i.lol.........n i took picture of it

nice..............lol

Haixxxxx..while im the bus....a lot of things ran out into my mind

its like there some bushes in it

but..........holiday next week

just few more days

wanna enjoy my holiday

This thurday we all planning wanna go to 1b n beach

hope everything will be fine

N tomorrow is my raptai for kecemerlangan

means that i gt my money for PMR result edy,,,,,

ahahahahhahaha

=='

lame

lol

Why it happen again?T.T

i try so hard to not get involve in that thing no more.

once u gt involve with that thing

it will nver let u free

in my age now..its only make me hurt in d end

but what can we do..

nevermind

let this time i just keep it secret.

haix...........

really no mood.

hope it will fade soon...

i really hope..i think???

tik tok tik tok =.=

this morning my cuz told me something.

very dissapointed to hear it

Damn boreddddddddd

my genius mom told me that today is the wedding..but guess what..its tomorrow actually.............

im sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo boreddddddddddddd

few minutes later im goin to sleep..i think.??????????????????????

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

aiyerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

why im writing this crap........................................................

n im still doin it.............................

seeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee............

nah..............................

k............................

i stop here..................

stil writing it...................................

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr..................................

kkkkkkkkk

cant stop...............................

am i goin to do this untill tomorrow..........

waaaaaaaaaaa

still............

k...........................................

enough...............................

goin to write one word again...............................

=.=

what a shocking news

at 7pm like that...there was car accident..
the ppl who involved is my fren's bro n my fren's bf
=.='
i dont know how to comfort her
i mean im sucks in that thingy
i just hope that everyone will b alryte
:))

its hurt..make it stop!!!!!

T.T..........................................
same situation with my fren xiang ryte now..she oso sad with something
huhu
its so hurt,make it stop

tomorow hope my plan with anita will work..
tomorrow go find job
huhu
sad sad
make it stoppppppppppppppppppppp

many unknown number start to annoying my hp since i post the thing bout her
who cares..if shes the one who ask her fren...waaa....very childish lo u..
lol
hmmmmmmmmmmm
neway...........
wanna keep myself busy
so i wont think of that thing nymore

LUBLUB.....XP

went out with sis on sunday


ermmm..lazy to write my blog on that day..sooo shit ohwrx...after knowing what happen..neway
have fun when out wid sis..
we went to wisma....saw many frenz der XP
saw Evienmui,2 pengawas unknown name lol,terry.w.n erm...Randy..n erm..unknown..forgt his name XP
lol
neway
after dat went to lintas n go cut my hair.....
divya fren me went to frenz cafe...den saw majorie again;:))
tok a lot der....lol...we dont know how to order cause first timeXP





Yesterday at school so fun..XD
we took a lot of picture
me n my clazmate
do stupid things...
hope tomorrow can upload here edy..
XD