Truth Sometimes Hurt you

Seriously?

I've been thinking to much this lately

It's like i still cant accept the truth ''ugly truth''

Sometimes It's better if you dont know any of it

But i guess it's like ''live in the fantasy'' right?

Hmmm....

I always thinking what will happen in ''IF SITUATION''

If you know what i meant..

Anyway

Lat night I slept almost 4.30am thinking of the ''if situation''

Erm..let me explain you guys what is it mean actually

''If situation''Is like ..''what i haven't do that thing?'' ''what if i did that? what will happen''

Get it? LOL

I think i will getting white hair soon cause too much of thinking

I mean who slept 4am in the morning just to think the if situation

I guess that only 1/100 people who did that...which is a thinker

Okaaay

Im talkin crap again

But........................................==

Errrrrrr....nothing.....

Some of my friend told me that im selfish...

Well i guess i am......

But i think..WHen its come to ''L words'' i dont really care for myself except for the one I ''L''

I mean who doesnt..right?

Erghhh...I do really think luv can really change someone

eventhough people will think in my age right now its just puppy luv..

but at least we are learning right ?i mean for the upcoming challenges that awaiting us in the next few years...or i can say the rael world

I do really think that for all this time i just live in the fake fairy tale love story thats not coming true in any way..no matter what i did

I'm sure there is more good person out there

Good as my Bestie,better then my bestie

Good as my lover,better then my ExLover

Good as my listener,better then my listening

Hm...................

But to assure that

I just have accept the truth...

In the diction of reality there is no 'us' between me n him

I admit its just a puppy love

The thing is when someone get close to me

Even how much i like that person too

but i will push that person away from me

i guess that precaution to away me from heartbreaker

But when think about it..like Kevin in Home Alone Movie 2

He told that person one story.His parents bought him a pair of skies

He never wear it for few years but after he tried it..it didnt fit him anymore

At last he cant even enjoy by playing his skies..

What he's trying tell is ''Sometimes you should try it while its still can be use(ur heart) and try to take the risk and enjoy it''

=))

I think thats all for now

=))

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BB

~Madeline.Life.Love.Fren~

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