Madeline.J.LiFe.LoVe.Fren.

LIFE IN MATRIKS N MY HOLIDAY

2011-12-03T23:46:00.000-08:00

so yeahh..now im in matriks.

my holiday was awesome..ahahha..

spent a lot of my holiday wid my friends....

watch a lot of movie...n.........wad else......erm.....

shopping n others?

i guess?..

hahaha...

so.. on that holiday..i did somethng that pretty embarassing..lol

there's this guy in my college.. he's so ermmm.. i dont know how to describe him..mysterious?

lol..

sooooo............i sms him.. ~~~~(omg..i know!!im a girl..i shouldnt do that) pfft

neway..he replied me.. but i dont think he like me.......

i dont know.. i just can feel it..

i think that im kinda LIKE him

..I cant understand him..

he's not like the other boys out there (this is for real)

.....

sooooooooooooooooooooooooo..i just gonna let faith decide this.

MATRIKS LIFE??

U know whatttt.. its sucks to the max.

but at least i have my friends with me..

hmm.this tuesday i will get my result

i just hope that i will nnot go to PDT

PDT IS LIKE HELL

UR STUDY WILL BE EXTEND TO ANOTHER ONE YEAR

please pray for me so that im not goin to pdt ok =((

soo..i guess thats all for now

tata

byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

<333 =)

im going to college SOON

2011-05-13T10:04:00.000-07:00

OMG.this is soooo sad..
im going to leave sabah to continue my study
hmmm
btw its just labuan actually
but still
i promised to myself that i will tell the truth to u when im leaving.
but the thing is will u say yes?i dont think so
i will b waiting for u to ask me the same thing
but no way that will b happen
so i guess i hv to keep it untill i die
ok.now im getin too dramatic
neway forget bout it
WADEVER IT IS. SOMEDAY OR SOMEHOW I HAVE TO LET U GO
im so stupid.haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

~madeline.j~

thanks for the memories..

2011-03-21T10:52:00.000-07:00

sooo..its been a long time since i x update my blog
n yeah
for sure i have a lot of story to write
i went to national service...
but i wont write that topic now..bcz i havent uploaded d pics
now i wan to write about someone who really make me fall in love with him
he so sweet...n yeah of coz..he is good lookin too
the thing is.....i really fall for him
ive been single for one year
i forgot how to date
i forgot how to handle the pressure when u r in relationship..
SAD?I KNOW~~
n the worst thing is..i forgot how to handle the break up part
tell u one thing for sure.
i really hate people that promised me but never keep their promises..
do u know how hurt it is to have someone u love just leave u n the worst part is.
u know he was lying to u to escape from the chaos.
dayem..u r so chicken
by the way
thanks for the memories..
it does really gimme a good memories esp when u gimme suprised n came to the airport
i dont have feelin for u anymore.thats for sure.
but somehow i cant be fren with u..n thats for sure
i did wished i cud have more time wid you
but u just cant wait till i get back
how selfish is that?
ur THINGS dat u gave me..hrm....
i guess im gonna put it in d box.
i dun know wad to do with it
i wont throw it away..bcz im not dat mean..
okay?
sooooo..people out there..
becarefull of wad u fallin for
bcz it may hurt u deeply
n may take a while to recover from the injured.
thank god i have frens beside me to cheer me up

DONT FORGET UR FRENS MO MATTER WHAT
I REPEAT
DONT FORGET UR FRENS NO MATTER WHAT
OK?
=)

DATS ALL FOR NOW

CRAZYYYY

2010-08-23T03:22:00.000-07:00

this is the picture that i like.my fav...maybe cz we two look different on it.

hrmm............wad happen today???

nothing important

went to school early in the morning

wait divya for her tapau (sasau pau)

ahhahaha...

the chemistry objective is okay

but its chemistry..anything can happen

i laugh a lot today...first jonathan n divya freakin funny

everything we laugh ==

even the simple thing we can laugh till we die

ahahahhaha..

now i remember

when me n divya wait my dad at the bus stop

i heard something like F.A.R.T

Then i tot it was her

so i keep on laughing

and she's laughing too...so i tot she admit tht she just fart

but at last she asked me wad am i laughing about

n i was like,errrrrrrrrrrrrr

''isnt that u just fart?''

n shes like...no im not!!!!!

hahahahahahah

but few minute later we discover that it was her baju kurung

the sound of tore..konon la

so to make sure.i tore her baju kurung again

haahhahahah...

den i was''ohhh yaaaa..its ur baju kurung pula''

den we both laughing

one word..''CRAZY''..lol

i think thats all for today...

i wanna sleep den wake up few hours later to study

chow chow..byeeeeee =))thanks for reading blog

UPDATE!!!!LOL =)

2010-08-23T00:59:00.000-07:00

Hey....its been few months since i log in.

well..its been busy year for me

my last post was about that jerk...

hmmm...

whats new??????

...well...

new fav song?

hell yeah

new fav people?

yeah =)

new fav food??

maybe.nothing new..

my social life totally down..as in down to six feet on the ground.

ahah..not that sucks actually

but still...compare to last year..dis year SUCKS.,

i read back all of my post in my blog..

its kinda funny..all bout that jerk..

ahhaa...wanna delete that post.its kinda embarassing.

my study not so good..

=(...it stress me out

actually.now im in the exam month..but

i need a break!!!

im freakin jealous of my friends that go out every night T.T

they have a life.while i dont

LOL...
hrmm....

left 2month for me to improve my studies.

in this short period i hope i can manage my study time

i cant say NO to friends when they ask me to go out

hrm....

feel sad cause few months later

it will be the ''separation day''

T.T..arh...i dont know how to handle it
do u know how important my fren for me???

eventhough sometimes i like annoyed them XP but

i know they sayang me..wakaukaukaak

im kinda loud in my class

ppl owes ask me to shut up especially the monitor..sang ketua kelas..ahaha

i laugh A LOT....wad can i do??????

we owes make jokes..

ahaha...

enough bout my school life...

how bout the L word???

hrmm

love love love love???

wad the meaning of love?

no one knows..its the biggest mystery on earth..ahahha

i dont believe true love in my age right now.

im still young...17??young right?

im not old ok ==..lol..

ahaha..

this year...i only like certain ppl but not love them.

thats all i can say.

i mean...its hard for me to like someone..unless they really caught my eye.

1st.attitude..(its like freakin important u know)

ahaha

2nd.(the look)XD

3RD.background.

ahhahahaha,.,,

but for now....

for this moment..

i only know how the feel of how 'liking someone''

but that someone is NO ONE for now.

Im afraid of gettin hurt again =((

<3>

saw a lot of my friend hurt because of that..same goes to me

i hurt a lot

this year im trying to be single

eheheh

i think i can do it..

left few months

hehe

..................................................

i like few ppl dis few months.

but i try to ignore and keep it myself

because no use if u tell them too

its not like u goin to be together also..

i eman maybe both can be together

but what benefit can u get???

gettin hurt soon?

sorry...but no thank you

when u with someone..all u can think of is him

u dont evencare bout your friend anymore

well..maybe you care..but not like u used to

im not Anti love.

but i just havent experience

maybe u heard me before by saying how beautifull love is

but that time im not actually mean it..

wanna know the true love is ...???

ask married couple?maybe they know maybe they dont

we dont even know love exist or not

but what can i say..

live life to the fullest

hrm..i forgot how fun blogging is..

ahahhah

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Madeline Jane

xoxo

i miss that day

2010-03-12T02:59:00.000-08:00

Me N MY fren..went to watched mv jux now
have a fight wid dem a while
hmmmm..
i went to starbucks by myself..to release my anger to them
while i was sitting der...it's remind me for all those days im wid that person
n i was like damn..didnt i already over with him
maybe its just a flashback.i hope....
feel empty and lonely now
there's no one i can complain bout my life..
feel annoyed by all those people that talk to me
anger had became my middle name
and sensitive had became my last name
so i guess my name would be madelune anger sensitive.
not bad hurh?
shit..i think i bcome emo again like i used to..
mamybe its because of the study and all the test im having now

but all i can think bout now is have a great result in my SPM result
wish me luck =(

2010 =)

2010-02-10T23:58:00.000-08:00

2010 nice????bad?????normal????

Okaaay...
time to update my blog
2010???wow
alot of things happen during 2010..........
well....on christmas night nothing hap

pen except my frens called me..the sad thing is they celebrating xmast but im stuck at home..!!! =((
but the next day went to my fren's house.....party der...=))having fun..so much funNEW YEAR

NEW YEAR

I celebrated my new year at my cuz place..Carlissa's house
damn...party all night long...==..new year...why not?...its the last day i can party wid all of my fren..
hehe
but the next day....been scolded by my parents.yaikssss
hmmm...........
Anyway.....

THIS YEAR....2010

Hmmm.............im trying to forget everything that make me hurt last year
maybe im not trying hard enough
but thank god..i have my fren beside me
they support me
they cheer me
they love me
they care bout me
and everything =))
eventhough some of them i still mad ryte now..but just let u all know..i still consider u guys as my fren...still care =)...but just that i cant tok to u all ryte now...cz still feelin hurt for wad u guys did to me last time....
well..wad can i say im ''SENSITIVE''
lol
Anyway
hmmm
i just think that i dont need that person anymore in my life..i just figured it out yesterday...i mean.......that few second im quite happy..but when think about it...ur nothing..were done...

know why: i have my life now..im enjoying it,so dont ever think to come again into my life den do the same thing again.like i said cheater is owes a cheater...shes got u..deal wid it...

this few months of 2010 is not bad...
really really busy wid all interact thingy adn all of the spm project
let me list down all i did this few months.. =)

went out wid sister owes....shopping together wid her
not bad i guess....well...for all this time..i only go shopping wid my girlfrens =)

weeeeeeeeee

sister still callin someone....dont know who...but if u see from her face...i think u should know who exactly she called that time...XD..

ADVANCE BIRTHDAY PRESENT =))

My parent bought me a watch..GUESS WATCH..im so happy

loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee them soooooooooo muchhhhhhhhhhhhhh

=))))))))))))))))))hehehehehe

well.....at first.my mum sms me..she told me they bought me a watch..but after few minutes later she sms me again..she told me they didnt bought the watch cz expensive...n i was like..harhhh??

but i know they bought it edy..they just wan to suprise me..n guess wad...im right...XD

Hmmmmmm...ookaaaaaayy..this last few months....im attending tuisyen (YEAH!??)

i think its for my own good.....one of my plan to score A's in my SPM (as if)AHHAHA

Hmmmm...This time.....i was goin to dinner wid my family......

still got time to ss...take pic..

wad can i say....i like to take pic ??

LOL

sPortttttttttttttttttttttt-tiesss Day... =))))

HAVING SOOOOOO much fun during sport's day

we took a lot of picture

im in green worlddd

weeeeeeeeeee

hehehe

well..actually im in orange but i changed to green...greeennnn..eheheh

Its worth...i became the penolong pengerusi n our GREEEEN!! got number two

ahahah

STAR =)

Ashh <33>Anita and ash <33..bestiee>LOL!!!..5am in the morning....ready to go school...well..why not take pic a while...LOL!!!!

AFTER sportsss...me n ash have to do the bm's project..
this pic is our folio...know wad =(...i did mistake on the title of the folio...so i have to redo...
but at last..we made it.
OUR PROJECT GOT KEPUJIAN..hahahaha..
really!!im not lying..lol

RENTAS DESA
ahah..............................rentas desa.....one hour of suffering..ahah
but its fun..running wid frens
.....wadever it is...i got top100..ahaha
den i won the lucky draw..XD

Went to watch movie with frens
We watched the Panaromal activity.
damnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn
so scary............
actually that movie suitable for couple
ahaha..
but it also nice to watch with frens..
there are 15 of us watched that movie
after panaromal we went to watched the JUON...ahahha
stupid movie..but i screamed but not as much when i watched the panaromal

Wid ayammmm.....(woo wa yam)
At kebab =)) look weird here..but nvm..XD

wId kung kung......

Hmmm.............
wad did i say...my life is balance...so dont ever think to unbalance it...LOL
I have my frens..love them....i have my parents....love them
couldnt ask for more.........................
ehhe
nowww...
lookin forward for the Installation night...its like a prom night..me n parvish d one who incharged with this special night...it slike hugeeeeeee
lol
I.U day...I.U day.......OMG.......
i must gt no 1 for I.U day..since im the one who want this job as director of i.u day....i mustttt....as in MUSTTTTT...get no 1......................................i will try my best..ehehhe
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tata
bb
~Madeline.J.Life.Love.Fren~
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Christmas Shopping 2 =))

2009-12-23T06:30:00.000-08:00

Merry Christmas...

GOshhh.. ilove christmas =))

Few days before christmas

but the bad news is i dont have any plan on that day

Hmmm

My friend ask me to plan

they want to go dinner then go to sutera to play

but i think it wont easy when its come to transportation

Anyway

Today i went to go shopping at Centre Point and warisan

weeeeee....shopz a lot today =))

These are all the items i bought today

(bought it for only rm10)nice is it ?cheap but nice =))

Roxy's bag...same as my lovely cuzzie Meryl...accidently

she oso bought the same bag...on the same day and maybe just few hours later or before

LOL

sO..gimme5meryl we got the latest collection =P

Then bought shirts from F.O.S ..

(rm23 each)

Luv this shirt..so cute =))

I got bought another shoes but din take picture of it cz it one of my christmas outfit

=))heheh

Okay ..how i wish this is mine..\but its not..its my sis

she's bought new laptop..pinkish..

so nice =((

Hmmmmmmm

LOL

Then night...me n my family went to dinner =))

Hmmmmmmm..

Have lots of fun this christmas week

really lookin forward to the big day =))

Just hoping this holidays will never end

but its okay...one more year then im done with this highschool crap =)

LOL

its not that i dont like highschool

just that i dont really enjoy it

for me..i rather skip my highschool year then went to the real world

but im not sure im ready for it or not

anyway that for now..

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tata

~Madeline.J.Life.Love.Fren~

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Player????

2009-12-21T07:17:00.000-08:00

Another Playboy???

Wow.......i really tought that you are different from the others
sometimes..i tought how good if everyone got the attitude that u got that time

But.....wow..im totally speechless

Again...same story...another same story that came into my life

U just another waste of my time

just get out of my life

all u told me is just a lie....

Maybe im the one who should be blame because i freakin trusted you

all thw words came from ur mouth is just fuckin lie

i really had enough with all of these players

Really PRO at lying....

Tell me why ur the one who so confused

when im the one who doesnt know the truth

I know bout her

Congrats.Thank God im not fallin for you

but a little bit upset because i tought u are a good guy..

why does i met so many players this lately

player ohwr player..

when u cant get that girl

u will work hard and do everything to make her fall for you

But once u get her...

Its like Game over

U will always have the perfect words to cover ur lies

U will always have ur perfect smile to cover ur lies

U will always have the perfect excuses to cover ur lies

lie.lie.lie.lie

keep on lielielielie

we all should give you some awards or something

When people ready to move on

you just came into my life

is it because accidently or what??

Tellin myself u better go find someone else

then u go..but if u gotta problem dont asking me for help

for you

its always about you

''u said u dreamin of my face but u dont like me cz u only just like the chase''

I can love with all of my heart baby

I know I have so much to give but with a player like you I don't have a prayer

I was young and in love

I gave you everything but it wasn't enough

That's the way to live

And yeah...somehow we gotta move on right?

but i really tought and tellin my self ''why not give it a shot''

and ..ahhh,,there it goes another good looking guy

and im goin keep convinced myself..maybe he's different from the others

maybe he's really the one

but i ended up by gettin upset(again)

because knowing the ugly truth about him

but i have to let u go to let myself free

Ahhhhhhhh.maybe i just have make rules to myself

no more heartbreaker

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Christmas Shopping XD

2009-12-18T06:27:00.000-08:00

Weeeeeeeeeee
Lat night i slept at 3am.LOL
olways sleep late at night
Will have panda'a eyes soon
AHHAAH
Today i woke up 10 am
waaaaaaa
i dont have enough sleeeeeeeeeeeep
But have the energy to go out for shoppping
lol
but unfortunately ..today so jam =(( just went to cp
Really damn bored
only bought one dress =((
huhu
anyway
I cut my hair today at patrick saloon
XD
like it

Truth Sometimes Hurt you

2009-12-17T06:54:00.000-08:00

Seriously?

I've been thinking to much this lately

It's like i still cant accept the truth ''ugly truth''

Sometimes It's better if you dont know any of it

But i guess it's like ''live in the fantasy'' right?

Hmmm....

I always thinking what will happen in ''IF SITUATION''

If you know what i meant..

Anyway

Lat night I slept almost 4.30am thinking of the ''if situation''

Erm..let me explain you guys what is it mean actually

''If situation''Is like ..''what i haven't do that thing?'' ''what if i did that? what will happen''

Get it? LOL

I think i will getting white hair soon cause too much of thinking

I mean who slept 4am in the morning just to think the if situation

I guess that only 1/100 people who did that...which is a thinker

Okaaay

Im talkin crap again

But........................................==

Errrrrrr....nothing.....

Some of my friend told me that im selfish...

Well i guess i am......

But i think..WHen its come to ''L words'' i dont really care for myself except for the one I ''L''

I mean who doesnt..right?

Erghhh...I do really think luv can really change someone

eventhough people will think in my age right now its just puppy luv..

but at least we are learning right ?i mean for the upcoming challenges that awaiting us in the next few years...or i can say the rael world

I do really think that for all this time i just live in the fake fairy tale love story thats not coming true in any way..no matter what i did

I'm sure there is more good person out there

Good as my Bestie,better then my bestie

Good as my lover,better then my ExLover

Good as my listener,better then my listening

Hm...................

But to assure that

I just have accept the truth...

In the diction of reality there is no 'us' between me n him

I admit its just a puppy love

The thing is when someone get close to me

Even how much i like that person too

but i will push that person away from me

i guess that precaution to away me from heartbreaker

But when think about it..like Kevin in Home Alone Movie 2

He told that person one story.His parents bought him a pair of skies

He never wear it for few years but after he tried it..it didnt fit him anymore

At last he cant even enjoy by playing his skies..

What he's trying tell is ''Sometimes you should try it while its still can be use(ur heart) and try to take the risk and enjoy it''

=))

I think thats all for now

=))

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Tata

~Madeline.Life.Love.Fren~

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Last christmas i gave you my heart but the very next day u gave it away this year to save me from tears i gave it to someone special =)

2009-12-16T03:25:00.000-08:00

Few more days to christmas

I still havent found the nice dressssssssss for me to wear on christmas day

Hmmmmmmmmmm

i have to find 3 dresses.....the price must be worth

Christmas christmas chrismas

Jesus's birthday =))

Most of all only treat Christmas as present day and santa clause

Sometimes theres some people more looking forward with the fake Santa

Sometimes we forget what ChristmasDay mean for us as christian the children of God

Its a special day..only once in a year

I admit that im not that super duper holy that goin to church everyweeks,Cz i do skip.LOL

Anyway...........

Another christmas day without someone special..LOL

I think is okay..is it???=((

hmmm ok.............

THink that my fav song for this year for christmas will be ''last christmas''

Ahahahah................................................~last christmas i gave u my heart but the very next day u gave it away this year to save me from tears i'll give it to someone special..LOL~~~~~~~~~~

ZZZ...Today.....

i've got nothing to do this week

just stayed at home and play the rubicube LOL

I almost get it right you know....LOL

Yaiks...just been scolded by mum...

I raised up the bill ==

Who cares!!!i need the phone to call my friends..!!!!!!!!!!!!

i dont have time to go reload lah okay........

zzzzzzzzzzz

who cares her...

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tata

~Madeline.J.Life.Love.Fren~

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Learning Cooking =))

2009-12-09T21:15:00.000-08:00

Wow

cant believe that im actually cooking

i mean can cook maggi but not fried noodles and RICE

definitely rice

but guess what im actually learning it

LOL..

check out my fried noodles XD

Yesterday i was damn bored same as today

Anyway...i saw something in my fridge when i wanna find my mlik

something like Bun.....i wanna know what inside of it

well....its written chinese words there

which i dont ''understand''

i asked my fren and he also dont know

so what i did was freakin boiled the bun

im to0 curious what inside of it

maybe im too bored== thats why

and yeah,first thing i did was cutting the bun into two parts

and inside of the bun is ''sasau''

LOL!!!!

here it is...the bun im talkin about

At Night

My sister bring me went to Foh Sang for our dinner

but its closed==

then we went to upperstar Damai at last

Havin nice time there

my sister saw her friends there

so we hang out there

quite fun and her friend is funny

as in very Funny

LOL

reached home almost 12.30am

Today damn boring ==

just now got caroling(is that how to spell it) in my house

the singing thingy

but i just stayed in my room

i mean no interest in it

wow..im mean ==

maybe because im no mood

but just heard it in my room

LOL

i just knew they arrived when i changed song in my headphone

when the song paused the i heard them..LOL

but they're good =)))

Hmppppp

my fren told me that im goin to Sabar

and i was like WTF==

they want to destroy my future

why they want to change my subject

thatd mean i have to catch up one year of economy studies

I mean no hell way im goin to study ecoomy

because i like science T.T

just kill me if its true

Having fun though my holiday

=))))

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tata

~madeline.J.Life.Love.Fren~

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Past is Past Baby

2009-12-08T06:49:00.000-08:00

What i learn today is Past is past..

I think almost 5 people already told me that past is past

just let it go

maybe its hard for me because seems like i cant move on

even my close friend kevin.he told me about i think almost 10 times edy..

just move forward and dont care about it..

ahahhaa

maybe i will from now on..

cause im tired with all of these drama

hard to admit but im actually enjoying my life now =)

ahaha

i mean..i hang out with my friend.i have fun with them

im really stupid from stoping myself have fun

guess that all i need is my friend

I mean..they are the one who really beside me when im sad

they are the one who beside me when i have a bad day =))

glad have them in my life

I couldnt ask for more.......

wanna say thanks to them someday

dont know how to pay them back =))

Speaking of friends

there are some friends not really for us out there

its just up to us wether want to get friend along with them or not

but who are we judge people right?=)

but when its come to this topic

its important for us for choosing friend

because somtimes bad friends will

backstab you

love to watch u sad

ingnore u

take advantage of you

and trust me they wont catch you whenever you fall

because for them

u are nothing..

i've been trough this quite a long time

i've been the good ppl and sometimes bad

who doesn't?

anyway..my point is

Friends sometimes can hurt you

10 times greater then ur special hurt you

because u tought u trust them

you never tought they will betray you

This few days i keep on thinking about SOMEONE

MISS THAT PERSON SO MUCH =)

But as my friends said ''past is past''

im goin to learn that..

thats for now..

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tata

~Madeline.J.Life.Love.Fren~

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Memories =)

2009-12-07T07:41:00.000-08:00

This sunday i went to 1B

okayy..sure guys tought im going to watch the Y2J

Even my fren saw me there they say have fun and enjoy and i was like ahrh??lol

but actually i went there with my sister for wedding

ermmm...its in the ballroom of 1b

very fancy classy nice..first time wen there then i'm already fall in love with that place

then.....huhu

saw someone that night...erm...

then i remember my first date with him..i never been dat before

he's my first....XD.damn funny when think about it

but because of my egoish and dont trust bout him...

iwas so angry that time

i say the words and untill now we havent spoke to each other

its sad but past is past..nothing we can do about it

just keep erm as our memories =)

Today i went kkboox at waterfront

its Lai Bday

ahhaha

happy bday to Lai kai Ping..

He is so funny

Hmppp i was thinking about something

i f can change the pass what would i change in my life

and what if i only have one thing from my past that i can change

hmpppp

i know its sounds craz..but i was thinking about it a lot

lol

Anyway..wanna tell u guys some ghost story here..i dont know wether its a ghost story or not

but all i know is its scared me

i went to funeral that night...

went to see my fren's father that died few days ago because of lungs disease

pray for him hope he'll be alright up there =))

anyway..when my sister n brother inside went see the coffin

i was staring at the bathroom

suddenly the ligh turn off

then i tought its normal maybe its automatic or something and maybe got people inside

suddenly its turn onn again

and i was like OMG................

then it become onn and off onn and off

i quickly close to my brother

damn its scared me alot

LOL

ahaha

today did something bad with thaat panda...really evil==

we played someone..but i have good time

i laugh a lot.lol

cause i think its damn funny

that person panic after we played..LOL.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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tata

~madeline.J.Life.Love.Fren~

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waAnna Change attitude???LOL

2009-12-03T04:17:00.000-08:00

This is Naomi Clark

OMG..i love her character in 9021o sooooooooooooo much.i mean she has the
attitude that i want so much inside of me....shes that kinda girl that will revenge whoever make her unhappy..nice huh?? lol

She's not the main character in 90210..but who cares..i love her so much..love her style.love her attitude..

This is Annie willson......hmmmm..shes kinda bitch in the few episode

okayy.......u guys must be blur why do i wrote about this two girl.lol

okayy

they are super duper friend (AT FIRST)

but guess what Annie backstabed Naomi

its like hello.....Can u imagine Annie and Ethan keep their secret from naomi......??

and Naomi just dont know the truth and she felt so dissapointed when she saw ethan and Annie make out in their school.Before it happen Naomi super duper trust Annie....hmm

Naomi did gt revenged on Annie..i mean..hello..she deserved right???

But at last Annie felt terrible and ask Naomi for Forgiven..And thats the story enD..

eRMM..

What im trying to say here is Naomi can handle this situation so well..i mean she did upset but she did revenged and thats how she is..she wont let anyone to break her heart.its just that ive been her situation before =))

http://www.cwtv.com/shows/90210/cast

Ahahaha...okay now I THINK im talkin crap..XD

anyway..i love my life right now because

(a) im free

(b)no need to care about study

(c)party all night long

LOL.....but i know its impossible.......huhu..

i more prefer to go out with my frens that almost same age or just few years older then me

because we have the same feeling and attitude..still childish one.ahhaha

still fresh.....still want to feel dangerous things..like adventerous-EST...

hahahahaha.....................

i still remember i did one thing that really super duper dangerous...can make myself almost kill

ahahhahahahahaha

but guess what i ended up bby getting the greatest experience in my life

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tata

~Madeline.J.Love.Life.Fren~

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Crazeyhh Night

2009-12-02T20:25:00.001-08:00

Lat night Me and my friend went to upperstar

i have to go there at 5pm just to book that place and guess what

they dont accept any book

soo i think that im so dead if i cant get the place book before they r comin

but thanks to Jon

he arrived there early then he can booked the place

feuuuuuh

lol

After we finished our dinner we went to ''Karaoke Porfume''

After that we went to pool..something happened there but after that settled

So.......me,meryl,nick.s,and kenneth went to ''Haha bar''

ermm...quite boring there,,,after that we went to ''the house'' and its empty

soo..meryl want to go back edy so they send her home while i waiting them at my sis place

which is ''haha bar''...few minutes later they came back..

and few people joined this time..dont really know them..lol

we went to ''the room'' and guess what its empty also..lol

sooo at last we went to balckjack

so we just stayed there

i went back almost 2.30am SO tired

erghh..my eyes damn red now because of the contact lens...

but who cares at least i have fun last nyte =)))

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tata

~Madeline.J.Life.Love.Fren~

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Out Out have fun

2009-12-01T20:24:00.000-08:00

HuHu

What a disaster

SIck today..damn sick

have my flu...not really comfortable in this situation

anyway

who cares...today im going out with my friends

have our dinner at upperstar lintas

crossed my finger hope its not fully book

erghhh

really dont know what to do now

errr..texted nick just now ask him go out

but guess what..he just woke up..no used o ==

waaaaaa..so bored ohwr at home

just hope tonight will be fun and great

i dont know why..but i feel like single more fun now

its like im free...XP....super duper free

nothing that i have to worry about except my studies

LOL..and im free to go out

(hachiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii..keep on sneezing...erghhhhhhh)

gosh...i really dont know what to do.......untill 3pm...lol

ermm..i think thats all

huhu=

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tata

~madeline.j.love.life.fren~

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Cloudy Day

2009-11-30T20:55:00.000-08:00

What a cloudy day

ergh..dont know what to do

yesterday filled my time with cleaned up my room
lol.at least got something to do huh?

anyway.i got nothing to do today besides watching tv

watched ''Home alone'' just now

GOSH..i dont know why..i never get bored with it

i watched it more than 10 times already and i never get bored with it

Rrrrrrrrrrr

Damn cold

its goin to rain heavily later

For sure

damn cloudy and its dark here

i havent eat my lunch ><

damn hungy ..i just dont know what i want to eat

ermm..nevermind..lol

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~Mdeline.J.Life.Love.Fren~
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NEW MOON..love it <333...

2009-11-29T21:18:00.000-08:00

Yesterday i got my reward X)

i went to Chinese Chamber Persatuan Tiong Hua

they gave me rm100

HEHEHEHHE

Damn happy

After that me n cecilia direct to Centrepoin

we watched New Moon..

GOSHHHHHHHH

its so Romantic

Really love love love New Moon

EDWARD AND JACOB

dan hot and super duper romantic

I <3>

What i meant is

They say words that human beings cant say to their love one

one of them is a warewolf and the other one is Vampire

goshhh

wanna be in Bella place for once

ahahahah

How i damn freakin wish

my bf is a vampire

lol

ermmmmm

Yesterday my sister scolded at me

okaaaay

actually i kinda realise that i did changed

erm

attitude????

yeah..i think so

when i was form1

i dont even care what i wear

i dont even wear make up

all i care is my studies

well..i did like someone when im in form1

its like daaaaa

im teenagers..!!LOL

anyway

what im trying to say here is

maybe i should change

i promised to my sister that i will change

ermmm

XP..but i must go to upperstar this wednesday

nothing can stop me

the only thing that can stop me is what i should wear on that day

still thinking about it

hmmmm

lol

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~Mdeline.J.Life.Love.Fren~
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I WANT TO GO OUT!

2009-11-28T04:11:00.000-08:00

seriously..i really want to go out

i mean whassup with this all fuckin drama

i really dont need this

i just need to relax

and fuckin no way this will ruin my whole holiday

theres another 1month

Why does everyone seems really enjoying to make my life so

misserable

I JUST WANT A HAPPY LIFE FOR SAKE

hope tomorrow will be okay

today really fuckinshit day

really pissed me off

totally no mood whole the time

just shoot me!!!

maybe u will happy

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

why?

i really need a break

i just hoping that i can turn back the time

there is so much i want to change in my life

i just realise something

people are selfish when its come to 'love'

even i admit its true

what i mean is

we risk our friendship our freedom just to feel how love can affect us

maybe im still young to say this

but i did felt it

and it doesnt seems magical enough to me

its nothing but hurting and destroy your heart into pieces

in our age they say

''boys are nothing but a heartbreaker''

i got it from my friends mom

and yeah..in our age

''everything is like the end of the world''

its damn true

got it from seventeen again

I think maybe there are some reason our parents wont let us dating untill we get old enough

and that is:

(a)they dont want us to date because they know it will affect our study

(b)scared that we will get hurt.because they been there done it

(c)they will spend a lot of money by paying the phone bill(LOL)

(d) maybe because the love us so much

Hrmmm......

i really dont know what i want exactly

GIRLS dont know what they want

u just have to figure out by yourself

sometimes when girl says 'no' sometimes its 'yes'

and ''yes'' will be ''definitely yes''

well..ive been told that u must choose that u will not lose

because u cant have everything in ur freakin life

dont take the chances cz u might feel the pain

SEEEEEEEEE!!!!i just writing my blog now n got upcoming message

then i was about to reply

then guess what my super duper dad scolding at me right now

WTF!!!

what i have to do beside this thing

you want me to study???

do i have to remind you that im holiday right now???

ohwrrr..i get it

maybe they want me to see their face 24/7

clap hands!!!!

my sister said that i changed

im the one change

or u the one who change?

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tata

~Mdeline.J.Life.Love.Fren~

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Ev3rYday is suprising

2009-11-27T17:34:00.000-08:00

On 26th of november

Happy Bday to Parvisher Kaur Gill

Went to her party

before the party.Me,kev,nick,and evon went to divya's hs

eheh...borrowed her cloths..because all of us

dont have indianish cloths look

well..FYI .the themes of the party is 'bollywood night'

everyone have difficulty by finding the right outfit for that day

but at last..we manage to find our own outfit

ANYWAY.

omg

im having so much fun

were dancing like non-stop

Parvisher damn pretty and beautifull that day

we're like damn craZy that night

everyone was hyper

lol..as in super duper hyper

then after that

we played the 'kahwin' 'cerai' and 'tunang' game

as usual..im the first one out from that game

ahha...its because im busy with my hp sms when they told us the rules of the game

but anyway

i have soo much fun

the food was great

we went back about 12am edy

everyone was like sad

we wanna dance more

party more

huhuu..lol........................

by the time i reached my house then direct went to sleep

i want moreeeeeeeee party!!!!!

On 27th november

i woke up like damn late..11am i think

feels erghh 'dont want to wake up'

hmmm

lots of suprises

i mean,,'good' and 'bad'

well..in my life..when there is good things goin there must be bad

i mean as in always like that

got one time

in my school

i was damn happy i dont know why

but i sang all day long...laughing like crazy gal

but the next thing is i cried like crazy

because i went to saloon that day then hairstylish cut my hair damn short

actually its not short but for me its short compared to last last time

lol

hmmm..nvm..what can i say

that is what we call life

when something is going on

i will go to my room bring along my laptop

loud up the music n play games there

all my problem will fade..

thats the best way for me to handle my problem

Anyway

i got few hp called from unknown number yesterday

he/she called me i think 3 times or 2 times i think...

he/she just listen to my voice then hung up..

same thing happen on 26th but now i know already who is it

but this time..emmm

Anyway..if i being murder then i got my proof here..lol

''negative thinking''

but honestly

next week i will enjoy untill no limit

must must must

lol

planning this monday want to go out at night with frens

crossed my finger hope my parents let me go

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~Mdeline.J.Life.Love.Fren

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FUN.TIRED.CRAZY

2009-11-25T06:50:00.000-08:00

At last..

Feuhhhhh

So tired today

went out with

Nicholas

Oliver

Kevin

Jackson

Morgan

Crazy day we have there

but not good when its come to shopping part

lol

since i was the only girl..i have to follow them shopping

lame=.=

now i know boys r like girls when deir shopping

lol

i dun have nothing to do..so i just keep on doin the annoying sound untill someone angry...haahhah

Went to F.O.S

aS you can see

nick the one who shopz maniac

he bought lots of thing

lol

i only bought necklace

After that we went to growball pool

=))

but im kinda blur right there

dont know what to do

they all play pool

and i just sat there watching

lol

We also saw barth n others

but quite funny

want to learn how actually but quite shy ><

i wear dress must be awkward..lol

aCTUAlly i have fun today

tomorrow hope the party goin to be great

weeeeeee

starting to love my holiday

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tata

~Mdeline.J.Life.Love.Fren~

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Wakie wakie <333

2009-11-23T18:03:00.000-08:00

wakie wakie everyone

cant sleep very well last night

maybe its because im not in the good mood =(

when im not in a good mood

i will treat everyone so bad

and its not me at all

im that kinda gal

that happy

owes

but its all my fault

maybe i think too much

plus.i just knew something

evethough its not my problem

eventhough its our past

but i just cant forget about it

i cant imagine that u with someone else

but i still care about it

im so down

feels that im really really

LONELY

feels lot better today

want to say sorry to everyone

for those who i offended last night

hmmmmmmm.
soo hungry...

need to fing some food.

at night

my sister bring me to ate japanese food

errr...

not really into it

talking about japanese

remind me of something

hmm

not a good thing

but who cares anyway

im not really into japanese food this recently

i used to like it

but..

people change

yeahhhhhhh..PEOPLE CHANGE!

=.=

why is it happen again

i have enough with it
i mean WTF

this things

i mean

species

keep on coming in my life

erghh

forget about it

guess what

no more miss nice madeline

grrr

im so fuckin no mood

=.=

hope tomorrow will be great

forget about everything

wuwuwuwuwuuuw

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tata xoxo

~Madeline.J.Life.Love.Fren~

Things come and go

2009-11-22T20:12:00.000-08:00

LOVE TO TAKE PICTURE ON WEBCAM XP

fEeeeeuhhhhhh...........

its holiday but feels like hellday

maybe because im trapped in this four walls almost everyday

i dont know what to do beside chattin

sms-ing

call-ing

bor-ing

watch-ing tv

sleep-ing

LOL-ing

Now listening to Justin Bieber 'one time'

hmmm.....niceee song~~~

Anyway.i make huge changes on my blog =))

at last im done with it

now really feeling lonely-ing-ess-est

HUUHUUUuuuuu

But anyway..single is fun right?right ?right?

hmmm...

This recently i keep on thinking about the stupid things that happen to me....

its like soooo frustrating

dissapointing

confusing

useless

stupid

Maybe because i dont have things to do

thats why...is it??

erm......

THis Thursday have to attend my Friend's Birthday

''Parvisher Kaur Gill''=))

butttt..i dont know what to wear

=(((

because its Bollywood theme

i dont know where i can get that kinda outfit

...........................................................................................................

hmmmm...Anyway

i think i've been curse by someone

i mean

why i cant get long time period of relationship with someone

its always

3hours ]

1day ]

1week ]

2weeks]

3weeks]

1month]

Why ??????

Maybe because of me or them the one who cheated on me

well guess what..most of it because they cheated on me

they dont know that i knew about it

well.......

its kinda hurt

when my friend told me they saw my bf with someone else

thank god they are just my simple bf and nothing special

because i know someday they will cheat on me also

i mean..which guy who doesnt cheat on their gf

tell me if u found one =)

lol

but seriously.why they just cant be loyal with only one girl

is it hard?

well...

i can tell that more than half couple that i knew before broke up

because their bf cheated on them

hmmm...so unpredictable

well...

the best way is

''dont take it to0 serious when its come to relationship''

well...thats quite easy when you tell it to everyone

but when it come to me

its super duper hard

i mean

we are girls

just sweet talks from the guy

then our heart will melt

all their fault just flew away

ahahahha

funny when think about it

well

now im single

eventhough sometimes i quite lonely

but as long i didnt put myself into big risk

by lettin them to break my heart

then..just let it be

''two is better then one''

for girls its mean couple better then single

but maybe for guys

two girls better then one girl

LOL

no offence

im just making some statement here

so no hurt feeling yahr =))

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well......

boyfriends come and go but friends always be there for you

just want you to know that

it will gotta be awkward,girl.

but im just gonna wait untill u make the right decision

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tata...bb.

thats all for now

~Madeline.J.Life.Love.Fren~

guess that u want it to be end like this

2009-11-21T18:59:00.000-08:00

keep on saying that i played u
keep on saying i cheated on u
i dont care because u have the right to angry at me eventhough i dn cheat or play u
i still wanna be friends with you
but guess what
u deleted me from your friendlist
please remember what u asked about me to my friend
and still can forgive you
because i care about you
but nevermind i guess that u want it to be like this
dont ever say i dont care.
if i dont care mayb i continue our relationship
i just dont u to get hurt
wish u have a gud life
n i do care bout u
hope u see this

i just dont want to hurt anyone T.T

2009-11-20T22:05:00.000-08:00

seriously
im really a bad person
dats why i have to do some action now
so i wont hurt anyone
soooo
by doin that i have to brave myself n tell the person the truth
i cant live in a lie.
im just so sorry
just so u know
i dont want o hurt u ><
its not for my own good
but its for ur own good
i can see that u really serious in it
but the more serious u in it the moree i scared
its not that im not happy bout u serious in it
but i more scared that im goin to hurt u
the more longer the time i let it be
the more its hurt for you............
u told me that u wan me to hurt u
but that is not me
i dont like to hurt anyone
T.T

if u wanna hate me..den just hate me
but i just dont want to hurt you
i think i told u before
about i dun wan to hurt u
i know the feeling
dats y i dont want u to experience it
i really hope u can forgive me
im so sorry.
eventhough its hard for me to let u go
but that is the right desicion so i wont hurt u
i hope that we still can be friend
T.T
sorrryy
u will always be my baby prince

SAD =(

2009-11-17T23:18:00.000-08:00

I feel that i want to cry so hard right now
i just knew something that i could never accept
its really make me sad
tell me its not true..pleaseee
tell me its not trueeeeeeeeeeeeeee
i never that tot that thing will happen in my life
i think its my fault.............
i dont want this to be happen
can God turn back the time
can He?
if yes....please!!!!!!!!!
T.T

Just enjoyed every moment of it :)

2009-11-17T07:51:00.000-08:00

Wednesday

As you can see Danial removing the block with his shaking hands and smiley face...n nicholas face just cant wait to see the block fallin down

LOL

we have a lot fun played this game

soooo its a right decision for me to bring it at school :)

but guess whattt??

SPOTCHECK

were all panic..i mean i dun know why but my friend hide my game Jengga cause dey tought they will take it from us..lol...funny

N oliver..haixxxxxxxxxx..im the one who hide his phone....

=.=

but the mosttttttttttttttttttt fun thing is

my sister went to my school and met my teacher disiplin

welll i made a few mistakes

but she dont have to be rude to my sister

as u know my sister not that really friendly person.well shee is friendly but when it comes to rudeness..there she goes

girl power!lol

i dont know why but why the teacher always lied bout what i did in my school

i mean..hellooo..i nver wear mascara n eyeliner to my school..

n suprisingly my teacher said to my mum i wear it almost everyday n i was like wtf

no i wasnt

=='

but nvm

teachers will always be a teacher

if u know what i meant.nvm forget bout it :)

Afer came back from school

my dad wanna bring me to visit his mum

which is my grandma of course

Next day..THURSDAY

me n my 11 other friends went to 1borneo

we watched the 2012..scary...how i wish got he beside me that day....but what can i say..he's not mine..he's taken.nvm :(..

Anyway,before that...we went to kbox den play pool

lol

everyone dun know how to play

sot!!XD

tooo concentrate to watch the 2012 untill i forgot what time is it

its almost 5.30pm

n i was like OMG

my family dinner was like 7pm

sooo we decided to take the taxi or i can say van that cost rm70

expensive

but nvm

atleast we gt home on time

lol

After that nicholas,divya,jonathan.cfh wait their car in my house

sooo i just get ready n let them play my comp instead

lol

After dinner...me n my family went to vedablu to get some ice creammmyummy

actually dat day is my parents anniversary

congrats to them

:)))

On Sunday

Me n my sisters n SHana n Sherenna

went to 1Borneo again

seriously

im gettin bored with that place

lol

though.Havin lot of fun there

LOL..me n my sis wearin the stupid xmast hat

wInnie the poooh

i took the picture when we went to toys r us

siok oo..

SPongebobbbbbbbbbbbbbbb

Me n My pretty sisterr xoxo

we went to New York restaurant for our lunch

yummyyyyyyy

:)))

the next day

is Terribleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

i cannot register

my name been blocked by that teacherrrrrrrrrrr

grrr

have to go bilik disiplin

then register

lameeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

but after that is doneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

schooooool holidayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

Miss my Prince ><

2009-11-15T23:36:00.000-08:00

heheeh
he sooo far away from here
huhu
miss him
he really have the everythings that i dream of to be my prince
haha
XD.......................................................................................
lol
this is the url of his blog http://jia0933-jstyle.blogspot.com/
hensome prince i have here
ahahah
XP

WOWeee

2009-11-15T02:09:00.000-08:00

Found my Hensome Taiwanese Prince....
XD....
he so sweet....XD

feels like im in the drama....

2009-11-14T22:38:00.000-08:00

I dont know why

but feels like im in the drama

or......do you ever heard of the new song Leona Lewis Happy ??

Check it out

it;s nice to hear

call me emotional but you never know i just been trough

but past is past right

lazy to upload about our escape journey to 1b

this recently i owes n owes no mood

Last night i wanna go out....night out

but my sis wont let me follow her

sooo as usual,play comp online eat watchtv

daaaaaa

bored

everyone went out that night

left me at home lonely n undescribeable(i dun even know its a word o nt)

anyway

im confused now

tooooo much drama goin on in my life

i think i will change my middle name into drama

well what can i say

i trough it almost everyday

mayb like in hallmark channel owes says.'everyday is drama'

harh?funny

ermmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

tik tok

nvm

glad that i met lotta new friend

hope this holiday gonna be great

tata

Walk Away

2009-11-09T06:18:00.000-08:00

Saturday.......

Did some changes on my hair

but not that obvious

Bored ><

Sunday

Woke up early in the morning to go church

my sister wan bring me to shopping wid her at wisma

so i tought just wisma =.=

Get ready 11am like dat....

At wisma we hav a lot of fun

well............not lot of fu..but stilll :)

suddenly my sister say she want to go warisan

And i dont know but deep down i dont want to go that place

i gota feeling dat somthng wrong goin to happen there

so i told my sister that actually i dont want to go there

she was like why?den i just nvm about it

mayb its just me

sooo

guess what

im true about it

saw with his new girl

'eventhough its killin me but im impressed'

actually i ahve a choice wether i want to passed them or just walk away

but i just past them

n tell u what...dat is the most hard things to do

and its sad

but its okay

past is past

So i just continue myself with happy face :)

but u nvr know what happen after that :(

huhu

let just i think him as not worth it..

so its wont hurt me anymore when think about it yahr

Tuesday

Didnt go to school on monday ..lol..so i missed chemist n physics

so i decided to come on tuesday which is today

nothing much special bout today

haixxxxxxxxxxxxx

today we resit exam for biology...u cn seee all the student from form4 A still sleepin.gave up on bio i think n so am i.lol.........n i took picture of it

nice..............lol

Haixxxxx..while im the bus....a lot of things ran out into my mind

its like there some bushes in it

but..........holiday next week

just few more days

wanna enjoy my holiday

This thurday we all planning wanna go to 1b n beach

hope everything will be fine

N tomorrow is my raptai for kecemerlangan

means that i gt my money for PMR result edy,,,,,

ahahahahhahaha

=='

lame

lol

Why it happen again?T.T

2009-11-07T05:45:00.000-08:00

i try so hard to not get involve in that thing no more.

once u gt involve with that thing

it will nver let u free

in my age now..its only make me hurt in d end

but what can we do..

nevermind

let this time i just keep it secret.

haix...........

really no mood.

hope it will fade soon...

i really hope..i think???

tik tok tik tok =.=

this morning my cuz told me something.

very dissapointed to hear it

Damn boreddddddddd

my genius mom told me that today is the wedding..but guess what..its tomorrow actually.............

im sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo boreddddddddddddd

few minutes later im goin to sleep..i think.??????????????????????

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

aiyerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

why im writing this crap........................................................

n im still doin it.............................

seeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee............

nah..............................

k............................

i stop here..................

stil writing it...................................

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr..................................

kkkkkkkkk

cant stop...............................

am i goin to do this untill tomorrow..........

waaaaaaaaaaa

still............

k...........................................

enough...............................

goin to write one word again...............................

=.=

what a shocking news

2009-11-06T08:06:00.000-08:00

at 7pm like that...there was car accident..
the ppl who involved is my fren's bro n my fren's bf
=.='
i dont know how to comfort her
i mean im sucks in that thingy
i just hope that everyone will b alryte
:))

its hurt..make it stop!!!!!

2009-11-05T08:15:00.001-08:00

T.T..........................................
same situation with my fren xiang ryte now..she oso sad with something
huhu
its so hurt,make it stop

tomorow hope my plan with anita will work..
tomorrow go find job
huhu
sad sad
make it stoppppppppppppppppppppp

many unknown number start to annoying my hp since i post the thing bout her
who cares..if shes the one who ask her fren...waaa....very childish lo u..
lol
hmmmmmmmmmmm
neway...........
wanna keep myself busy
so i wont think of that thing nymore

LUBLUB.....XP

2009-11-02T22:01:00.000-08:00

went out with sis on sunday

ermmm..lazy to write my blog on that day..sooo shit ohwrx...after knowing what happen..neway
have fun when out wid sis..
we went to wisma....saw many frenz der XP
saw Evienmui,2 pengawas unknown name lol,terry.w.n erm...Randy..n erm..unknown..forgt his name XP
lol
neway
after dat went to lintas n go cut my hair.....
divya fren me went to frenz cafe...den saw majorie again;:))
tok a lot der....lol...we dont know how to order cause first timeXP

Yesterday at school so fun..XD
we took a lot of picture
me n my clazmate
do stupid things...
hope tomorrow can upload here edy..
XD

Out wit nick and olive

2009-10-31T19:42:00.000-07:00

Yesterday out with nick n olive

its 9.3am oliver called me many time but i din hear it..lol

untill he called my house hp

den after nick again called..he oso just wake up

ahahha

he told me that better if go 1b den cp

den after that done...

were goin

i didnt buy my contact lens but nvm..can buy it next time

we have our lunch at old town

after that we went to search our frens present

2.30pm

We went to watch the jenifer's body

niceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ohr

megan fox is hot as in damn hotttttttttttttttttttttttttt

lol

thats all

Actually not thats all..lotta things goin on at night.ermmm

but nvm....

wanna o out o later :((

LOVEEE MY FRIENDS <333

2009-10-29T23:48:00.000-07:00

feuh.....its been two days my exam is over..but there will be another exam next week.

but all of us dont care..
On Wednesday

its THE END OF EXAM.n Sean's bday

so we decide to celebrate it

after finish school..we played water n flour n egg or course..lol

damn fun...

we went to steamboat at night

we have a crazy night

OMG......

LAST NIGHT

i have stomache

feuhhhhhhhhh

i was damn hurt

den my parents bring me to hospital

den dey put me on emergency room

they put me in der for few hours..

dat was hell of a day

neway

i miss my fren

i hopw i can go school soon

:))

dont care bout the exam

lol

CITYMALL AGAIN.CUT NEW HAIR

2009-10-04T04:50:00.000-07:00

i cut my hair today^^

hmmm...today i went to citymall again

getting bored...almost everyday went there

my sis curle her hair...

she looks pretty :))

hmmm

i oso cut my front hair...kekeke..cost rm10....at citymall kevin's saloon

while i wait for my sis..

i search for new cloths...

nothing caught my eye so far...

so i decide to spen my money to buy starbucks:))

i think i get addicted to starbucks ody...

i mean...the taste,,my gawd..sooo good..taste good

lol

we went back about 6pm ody

i bought Zinger burger..but untill now i still havent eat it...cause im full

lol

neway

i think thats all

have to study later

exam just around the corner

:))

fRiday26september-saturday3october

2009-10-03T07:08:00.000-07:00

SATURDAY(27SEPT)
So bored..so i decide to clean up my room><

SO tired!!!!!!!!!ahahah

cant wait for that night..cause carlissa will come over n sleepover in my house

That night.my dear sis meredith bring me n carlissa went out

We went to UPPERSTAR

Me n carlissa ss......pic.cheeseXD

i drank Long island.strawberry cocktail n many glass of beer with my sis fren as well.@@

feel dizzy ody...........

its almost 12am..n were still at upperstar...

i thought were goin back home...but my sis say they plan wan to go damai bar

but..its CLOSED...

Soooo...we went to lintas..

if im not mistaken..the bar name CODE BAR...

i really tipsy ody after drank many glass of beer..

i didnt notice that i drank that much.lol.

mayb because i rare go out to have some fun this recently

hmmmm..i say many times his name while i tipsy

i dont know why

we went back almost 4.30am ody...lol

29September Monday

I didnt go to school...

im soooo fu*kin sick....

sooo my parents bring me to see doctor..

the result...=coughing,flu,light asthma,n fever

so as ussual...the doc give me some medicine..==

which i very lazy to eat it

lol

dat night he* sms me XD

feel happy.lol

29 n 30 sept...

went to school as usual....==

so bored at school...

axcept that on that wednesday...

my class did the mercun thingyXD

SOOOOO FUN O

were like pretending dont know

we just threw the mercun outide the window.lol

crazy moment....

31st september

i didnt go to school again....lol..haahhah

im so lazy!!!!

last night i slept about 3am ody...

cause i sms n study as well XD (AS IF)

AHAHAHA

but i really got study ohwr....

ahahah

Friday 2 october

feuhhh.....dat morning got ppl called me....

unknown number

i dont know who is it...

called me many times....feels weird n scared

den when i went back from school..i saw my ho got 3missed call...

den one sms....

the sms really freaked me out

he tell me that he goin to beat me untill i know who he is...
but i go reply him again....what can i say..i was soo scared + angry...lol
i reply him in rude way...he didnt reply me..guess that i make him angry
lol

3rd october

Today i went to servay...==

shopping with my mum and sister

so bored o

lol

than at night me and my sister went out..

we went to citymall

me n <3>after few hours at citymall
we decide to go starbucks......
hmmm
i think thats all
feel bored
n lonely :((

HAVING SO MUCH FUN YESTERDAY HEHE

2009-09-25T21:32:00.000-07:00

YESTERDAY WENT OUT WITH SIS N CUZ

HUHU.......WE WENT BACK ALMOST 5AM ODY OHWRRR

STILL DAMN SLEEPY...

THIS TWO DAYS ALWAYS SLEEP ALMOST 5AM....

XD

SLEEPY T.T

2009-09-24T22:12:00.000-07:00

LAST NIGHT SLEEP AT 4.30AM ODY @@

DAMN SLEEPY NOW...STILL SLEEPY..LOL

BUT NVM....AHHAHAHA.....I WOKE UP 10.30 AM ODY...

THATS IT FOR NOW.....NIGHT WILL CONTINUE.....

GOIN OUT TONIGHT..YEAH XD

2009-09-24T08:44:00.000-07:00

its almost 12am ....I listening to This song was like sooooo nice..i listen it almost 5times now....
its so freakin nice....
i really like the lyrics 'we were always meant to say goodbye' n 'love you enough to let you go'
this song is sooo sad...T.T
N MOST part i like in this song is when she sang '
It's like sooooo true...but neway...its just a song..
nothing else
Just now i was so bored...untill i have a nice conversation wid my MUM whic is very RARE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lol
mayb im to desperate to talk with someone
hmmmmm...My mum give me some advice today...hahha
she told me that she know that i experiencing the B thingy...like all teenage experience..she ask me to get couple wid my fren...weird...its because she like the boy ...i mean wtf...he is my fren....==
nvm
Damn...now i listening to already gone for more than 10 times..lol
ahahahha.
This evening i talk to my sot kdi...lol
i ask him something but he refused to help me..== useless elvin..XD.ahha...
nvm.....but i think he's hiding from me.....i know him..he really hiding something from me....hmmmmmmmmm....
but at last i know...huhu...
its better for me for not knowing the truth......he ask him me is like wad for him..answer:FOOD....find the answer for urself...its disgusting...its the truth..dont know that he can think that way...i mean i tot he was different from the other guy...T.T....
nvm nvm nvm......dont want to think bout it....
hmmmm...this lately i think i be more competative wid that person..if that person gt IT..then i oso must have IT..lol..hmmm..sure u guys dont understand...only my kdi know...hmmm
Anyway,,,,i hope tomorrow the plan will on..hmmm
hope no more distraction like the other day...to much fucjin distraction...
TOday anita told me about her new friend..lol
quite hensem ohr.lol
shes lucky....!lol huhu...he still no find me.YISH.
I REALLY CONFUSED O,..HUHU
one say he still like me one say he gt gf ody....for sake i wanna know the bloody truth
is it sooo hard?or is it to much to ask for?
hmmmmm
nvm....
now i realise every post dat i wrote....in the ending theres always about him
my GAWD......move onnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn........yish..i think i say this word many times ody in my life move on move on move on
i can do thisssssssssss..huhuhuhuhuuhu..
i think this wouldnt happen if he find me go out dat day....hmmmmmmmmmm...!!
ut i dont blame him

lol................................

...

2009-09-24T05:21:00.000-07:00

the end.....

bowrrrrrIng

2009-09-23T21:28:00.000-07:00

Glitter Text Generator

im soooooooooo boringggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i just wake up.....

and guess wad...???????????

my unread sms is empty..

Fine...no one want to find me anymoreeeeeee............ T.T

anyway..i havent do the chores...

ZZZZZ....i stop here...at night wanna write more again..lol..

freakin lonely...shit..lol

IM CRAZY AND PARANOID

2009-09-23T04:20:00.000-07:00

CRAZY DAY AT HOMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

im so bored ooooooooooooooooooo..cant stand it..............i wanna b crazy here...watching d same wall everysecond im my pathetic day.MYGOSH

I become paranoid................................................

i was watching dis view for almost 30minutes i think...@@..i was so boredddddddddddddddddddddddddd....i cant do anything beside walk there n there here..i was thinking bout lotta thinks..wondering wad he could be doin right now...he could be goin out wid his gf..yeackkkkkkk..im sound soo jelousy ..but what can i do..i have nothing to do beside that

okaayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy..mayb i can forget it...zzzzzzzzz.....i was playing d laptop all day long.......I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO BHA T.T...........

KUUKUKUKU KIKIK KALALALALAAL KIKIKI KILILILI

I WAS so bored ..den sketch some stupid bout what i feel inside my heart..sounds stupid..its not masterart...im not pro..soooo its look ugly..I know!super ugly ==

Den after that i was thinking about doin my addmath...but soooo ssorry...ADD MATH way tooo advance for me..lol
Sooo i refer to this book.........that i just bought from that CARLISSA XD..she sell me about rm5 from rm 22...lol..soo funny o......meryl bought her book about rm 10 oso...ahhaha.were so desperate for refenrence book....but im sure we dont read it oso....

yerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.. tomorrow i want to go to my frens party at jesselton..wanna wear my white dress n ss o.....

wuwuwu...T.T

I Think i just make my fren angry today...i dont know y but i like to find trouble if im in not in the mood..i suddenly go sms dat person den angry XP...LOL

sorry yahr.....hope u saw dis...dun know how to say sorry luhr....XD
LATER WAN WATCH DESPERATE HOUSEWIFE XDDDD

Yerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr..i tot got desperate housewifee...zzzzzzzzz

neway...i spend that one hour just now chat wid my kdi...ahaha...tell him everything about my problem...he oso tell me bout his problem...hmmmmm

after that he go watch movie le....den i dont have fren to tok...XP..

lol..

hmmmmm

yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy,...so bored...

JUST NOW MICH SMS ME.....TELL ME THAT THE PARTY WAS CANCEL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA..I WAN DIE,...MY PARENTS LET ME GO ALREADY BUT NOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW..ITS CANCEL...

FOR REAL...i really wan die.............................................huhu...

this is my worst holiday ever...hmmmm...next next week is my exam ..sooo men later i have to study...haixxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

actually today i go carlissa house..sleepover there..but my mum wont let me...she trick me!!!!!!!yerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

my life is soooooooooooo over fuckin pathetic......

Out to 1b WID My 2 Lovee cuzzie..

2009-09-22T18:59:00.000-07:00

SUNDAY 20/9/2009.........RAINY DAY...lol......Out to 1b wid cuzzie

After church me Meryl,n Carlissa direct go to cp.....thats mean

we arrived at cp about 9.30.pm..so we dont have idea what we want to do that time..all we know is were hungy!!!!lol

So we decide to go beside cp buliding..i forgot whats d name of the restaurant..but the food is sucks...=='...

Before that.were been followed by 3 creepy old man,....dey follow us around..its like creepy n disusting....gosh..but after that no more.thank God.lol

After having our breakfast we went back to warisan den go to the toilet to take picture...XD

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz....WERE kinda bored...nothing to see at cp...sooo like helll...soooo we decide to booked the bus ticket to go to 1B
We cant make it to booked the ticket to 1B at 11.30.cause its full....sooo we wait for the next trip wihick is 12.30......sooooooo

we wait at Sin wang...

we talk lots of thing...take picture again..XD.

we were talkin about when we were with them..i mean each of us have our loved one..but what can i say...its not our power to make them love us back..soo we decide to forget bout them...AS IF we can..lol

12.30..pm.....we wait at the bus stop again like stupid.....while we insulting i mean play Meryl...suddenly her phone feel down..I dont know whos fault is it..XP....

HEHEH...we arrived at 1b about 1pm i think...my feet so pain..After walkin around bout few hour..we go to OLD TOWN....n theres my problem bagin ==

THey saw meee soooooooooo frust...i was thinking bout him...i mean soooo in to him..i was wonder why he din find me....i was so confident that he will find me cause that day he gt find me sms...zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz >.<

SOOO carlissa want to help me..LOL..

She ask me to sms him......first i dont want..but after that she help me sms.... 'where r u?'

den my cuz say...she very sure dat he will reply..sooo i jut closed my eyes and ask my cuz take my hp wether it have sms or nt...im so stupid ==

Than after that...few second later he sms..MY GOSH...shes true..he sms....i was like sooo freakin happy..den my cuz help my type...its sounds like playgal..den i was frust again....but im soo sad he din say the same way i type to him..zzz...den i stop reply him...feels like im disturbing him..haix

Meryl do the same way like i do oso..lol......the one that she like oso got reply her back..we were sooo happy..but the end ..she oso feels dat she dont want to reply the person again..
Feels like i was really disturbing him..i was sooo sad..==...T.T..but nvm..i really hope he will sms me later....

After went back from 1b ..we go to karaoke...

we released our stress by singing 'THINKING OF U' 'TOUCH A GIRL' 'HOT N COLD' 'TAKE A BOW'..n others lol....but after that our parents scolded us bacause we went back soooo late ody..lol..but i think its worth but expensive..i waste almost about rm100 on da day...==...LOL..NEWAY....I MISSS HIMM..but nvm..he gt gfalready..got someone to take care of him..hmmmmmmmm

ANYWAY...IM GROUNDED UNTILL SEPTEMBER..IM DEAD THIS MONTH.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! T.T

first day out for my first day start of holliday..lol

2009-09-18T18:17:00.000-07:00

yesterday went out with pretty Jing jing,Jason n ah chai(if im not mistaken d name ><) n after that five or 6 other boys join..but dun know them only know two dem is kkhs student...

we went to watch Tsunami

before we go watch the movie.me n jing jing go kebab..our feet sooooo hurt o==..cause we wear high heels lol..its my idea dat we want to wear it.XD..lol..many kkhs student oso go out dat day as in soo MANY..lol..after dat we wait for the others at kebab..i think i pinch jing jing so much when he's coming,...haha...but glad got my dear jing jing beside me to support me......she's a very good friend of mine...^^

den the movie start about 3.50pm. ermmmm.......i went back about 5pm..i only watch the beggining...T.T..lol n my friend say the end quite touching the movie untill she cry..awwww..hhehe.

so i have to walk out from the cinema before the mv finish den He acc me go find my aunt XD...WAKUAUAKUAKUKAUKAUUKAX..zzz.im crazylol..

he change ody but gt little bit feel weird go out wid him..ermmm...dun know y..but im happy neway.at least we become friends already.wakuauakaakakukuakhope can go out wid him other day XD but ermmm but dnt think so ==//lol.nvm...the movie is quite romantic...i heard that they only have 10 minutes to save ther love one...waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

if i were there..i dont know who i want to save..!!XD

After i back home ody...i notice dat we din eat our lunch and breakfast..no wonder i feel sooo hungry..lol.....so i wait my mummy to cook ...all day long..i was thinking about one question that keep playing on my mind!!!!>.<

then after that i called nicholas talk almost about 1hour i think..tell him bout everything wads goin on today...

ahahha....but neway..have fun n very happy oso today...

at last i know the answer ody..XD..

ermmmmm......got ss while waiting for transport

FRIDAY! :))

2009-09-05T00:19:00.001-07:00

LOV33333 Out with Friend

After school <3>

Serena

Oliver

lai kah ping

Nicholas

Jonathan

jackson

Sean

Amania

Law

Edward

went to centre point to watch movie..Final destination!!!!!lol

the movie only about1hour ><
the movie is sooooooooooooooooooooo disgusting

cost boutrm6

the ending niceeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..everyone dead XD

AHAHHAHA..But siok o..lol..after that went to F.O.S..ahaha.just hangin around der...

watch boxer XD
boys idea...lol

After that we went to waterFront....like stupid o our all pic

so peacefull...n view was great..can relax my fully loaded head here.

while i was enjoying the view..i was thinking of someone...someone dat make me heppy whenever he smilesomeone who make me cry someone dat make me crazy when thinkin bout him...lol....wadever it is..i want him to be happy...eventhough he with someonelse ody..i'll still b happy for u as long u happy too..but i will be lying if i say im not jelouse to see u with another person.

me n jon

After that we went to yogurt berry

ahahah......wess again...XD

Den i went to acc oliver to buy his dad's present.....he toook soo long to pick the present..but at last..he didnt pick any..my gosh..lol...

Night

I gt new friend called Hui jing..we have soooooo much common

ahahha....as in sooooooo many..

lol

i called her jing jing^^

shes pretty n nice.....hope can know her better^^

Today

just now my fren told me that she got out with Him...

wuwuwu......den she say dat he still put our pic in his wallet...waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

by the time i heard that...i was like....i wn to die n im freakin miss hi :(((((((

hmmmmmmm....

n she told me that he told her that he miss me....

wuwuwu

Someone found my purse!!!!! I passed my ADDMATH!!!!LOL

2009-09-02T04:04:00.003-07:00

Yesterday my fren went to my class and they bring me went to see teacher Neo...

IM NERVOUS...CAUSE I WAS LIKE 'WHAT AGAIN THIS TIME.SHE ODY GIVE ME SURAT AMRAN KE 2'could be she ask me to do the kerja awam thingy..

neway..by the time i reach her tabl..SHE WAS HOLDING MY PURSE

MY GOSHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

U DONT EVEN KNOW HOW HAPPY AM I!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LOL

DEN first question i ask her is. 'cikgu ada buka di dalam?'

lol!!!!!!!
u know y???im scareddddddddddddddddddddd

freakin scared..cause got my picture wid my ex n my fren inside...

i was like..IM DEAD.

but she just smile n say 'ada ic kamu di dalam'.

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa..

she is super duper supporting

evethough she just called my mum n tell her bout my bad attitude at school..zzz///==

lol

neway...den i ask who saw it den she say it was Recee n his friend

im sooooo lucky..zz....well...my money been stole twice..but still :))) i gt wad i want it to be..

::))) goin to put it in save place next time :))

heheh

PASSED MY ADDMATH

hahhaha

really din expect im goin to passed my addmath

heheheh

i mean hello...!!!!Its addmath HUMAN..its difficult...for me la..lol

hehhaha

but i passed..

i still remmber me and Ash make a joke if we pass..cause we confident that we wont pass the test..but at last..we passssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hallelujah(k..srry if i spell it wrong)HALLELUJAH!!!!!!!!!!!LOL..alleluia..lol

My fren confused..y im soo hepy bout it cz i only gt 50% especially Darryl..ahahahah....

well...for me its quite good improvement

i always failed in addmaths..but nowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww....im pass..

well..we see bout next exam...lol

SHOWOFF XP

HaPPY BDAY TO MY BestFRIend Jonathan Tan..aka my cute lil bro..lol

2009-09-02T03:43:00.000-07:00

HAHAH..funny pic...2008..me n jonathan :))..after dance performance in out school.
hehe

happy bday Jon....

always be my bestfriend forever forever..treat him like my lil bro..lol....he sooooo cute n caring...

HAPPY BDAY once again... :)))

Shopz N cuzzie Wedding Day

2009-08-28T07:30:00.000-07:00

hmmmm.....today went out with nick,divya,law,codi n jon..
nick pick me up from my house about 11am..ahah..
tooo late ody...
we planning dat we want to go 1B but cant...cause the timing not suitable
so we just watch movie at cp....we watch Orphan AGAINNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN
sooo i just have to paid up rm4 for the ticket..the rest they pay for me....
AHHAHHA
neway..after that we went to old station.........everyone seems like awkward.....
welll ....din really mixed up so well
all quite ..except me,carlissa n meryl..ahah
talk bout outfit...wad we wanna wear during our cuzzie wedding
ahaahha...

5pm like dat we went back follow our aunt.......
i only have 40minutes to get ready........n carlissa n meryl keep on screaming 'CEPATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT'....LOL...uselesssssssss babi..XDDDD..dun angry when u see dis....XD

HAHAHA..den after that i went to carlisssa house to get ready again..lol...
7pm like dat...we went to 1st wedding..quite lame.....boreddddddddddddddddddddddddd
den 2nd wedding okokla....ahaah....

heheheh..nothing to do...den ss loh

ayerrrrr....that hand..==....carlissa's hand...

hehehehe..cuzzie forever

This time my face so red..dun know y..i just drank 2glass of wine

Today saw something disturbing..lol

hmmmm

i dun know hw to described my feeling..first im quite ok...but after that..that feeling...feeling that i cant described..hmmmm......

but it makes me uncomfortable when thinkin bout it

hmmmm,

i really tot i get over it..but am i????

i dun think so..

hmmmmm

but guess what...

i will forgt bout it...

Wednesday :) shopping wid Anita

2009-08-27T04:36:00.001-07:00

Try hard to be happier den ever
:)

woke up about 7.30am...cause anita sms me..n tell me dat shes goin to my house.......n shes finally can out.....ahah....before that we having so much trouble when we planning goin out....

her father dun really like her to go out..

but after that..she told her father that she want to buy some bag...den finally she can

we get ready in my house............................

we wearing same colour..BLUE..her fav colour..but not mine

have so much fun.....we gt ss...as in take pic in my house by using my webcam laptop

We went to eat then we go find some bag..but cant find it...nothing fit her taste..well im just helping her..seems like ders a lot of nice bag..but hat can i say...shes choosy..lol..

HMMM..after that we....we went to kbox..ahahha....again...we sang sad song...

lol

ahahahahaha

den after that we went to SIN WANG...

wuwuwuwuwuwuwuwwu

den everything flashback

my FIRST date wid Himmm...A...

and First date wid himmmmmm...J.......

everythin started right there

hmmmmmm

T.T

nvmmmmmmmmmm

at least i gt ss there with anita my best test fren

anyway...................now im sounds little bit no mood...

know y...............................

i hate people lie to me..............!!!!!!!!!!!!

anyway..for get it

hmmmmmmmm

'Doushite Kimi wo Suki ni Natte Shimattandarou?

2009-08-25T08:36:00.000-07:00

dats mean why did i love you...i got it from the korean song..DBSK..

niceeeeeeeee song..but kinda sad

hmmm

TOday..

today i went out wid my fren soh pei yi...

but before that i hang out little while wid meryl my loveeely cuzzie n along wid her frens.

we went to 'kedai sasau'lol..actually i dun know whats the name of the restaurant but its located at groundfloor centrepoint...i think everyone know la..lol

2pm like that pei yi arrived then we go bu tickets...

we watch I LOVE U BETH COOPER

aahaah...

the movie started at 3.25..so thats mean theres a lot of time for us to go other places n have a drinks...

we have a nice conversation at kebab.....

tok bout vacation.family.frens....n others..hehehe

ermm..bout the movie..i love u beth cooper..

its nice,,

its about a guy in loved wid this hot girl name beth cooper..

its been almost 5 years i think(according to him cause he say for all his highschool life)

den during his graduate dat...when the time he gve a speech to the student...he admit that he inloved wid beth

ahah..then theres the problem get started

lol

niceeeee.............

anyway..i din make it to finish the movie..my aunt called me to inform dat were goin back ody..what a disaster..huhu

hmm.now lookin forward for tomorrow..cause tomorrow im goin out wid anita..ehheheheehhehehe

lolxxxxxxxxxxxx...............

Decide to wait.........

2009-08-24T07:45:00.000-07:00

Oceans apart day after day

and I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line

But it doesn't stop
the pain If I see you next to never,

then how can
we say forever? Wherever you go, Whatever you do, I will be right
here waiting for you, Whatever it takes, or how
my heart breaks, I will be right here waiting for
you.. I took for granted all the times That I thought would last somehow I hear the laughter and I taste the tears But I can't get near you now

Oh can you see it baby You've got me goin crazy

I wonder how we can survive this romance But in the end if I'm with you I'll take the chance Oh can't you see it baby? You've got me goin' crazy

THINKING OF YOU

2009-08-23T09:02:00.000-07:00

Comparisons are easily done

Once you've had a taste of perfection

Like an apple hanging from a tree

I picked the ripest one

I still got the seed

You said move on Where do I go

I guess second best

Is all I will know

Cause when I'm with him

I am thinking of you

Thinking of you What you would do if

You were the one Who was spending the night

Oh I wish that I

Was looking into your eyes

You're like an Indian summer

In the middle of winter

Like a hard candy With a surprise center

How do I get better

Once I've had the best

You said there's

Tons of fish in the water

So the waters I will test

He kissed my lips

I taste your mouth

He pulled me in I was disgusted with myself

Cause when I'm with him

I am thinking of you

Thinking of you What you would do if

You were the one Who was spending the night

Oh I wish that I

Was looking into...You're the best

And yes I do regret

How I could let myself

Let you go

Now the lesson's learned

I touched it I was burned

Oh I think you should know

Cause when I'm with him

I am thinking of you

Thinking of you What you would do if

You were the one Who was spending the night

Oh I wish that IWas looking into your eyes

Looking into your eyes Looking into your eyes

Oh won't you walk through And bust in the door And take me away

Oh no more mistakes

Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay...

Bored like hell T.T

2009-08-23T08:31:00.000-07:00

I tought that today would be fun...
but all of our plan dat we mad..cancellll
haix..parents
wad we can say to them.they wont understand anyway
dey only know dat they r d only person in the world or universe r true bout everything
what i mean is hello..we need life ok?
hmmmmm
me,meryl n carlissa plan dat were gonna go to citymall but no transport..haixxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
den all day long im at my cuzzie house watch AMAZING RACE..
yerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
y soooooooooooooooooooooo boreddddddddddddd o today
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
mayb thats all

waaaaaaaaaaa...stupid me..lolx

2009-08-20T07:10:00.000-07:00

haix
today
me n my fren make someone sad
we didnt mean to hurt her
its just dat we have to keep that secret so she wont hurt
but without realise..day by day..our relationship become weaker n weaker
hope she can forgive us
dont want to loose u as our bestfriend..
i know that bestfren will tell each other secret...
but this time we got excuse y we didnt tell u
we really dont want u to get hurt
hmmmmm

funny luhr today....
hehe....
during recess me n Anita went to canteen
den suddenly...ders he go...near canteeen C..standing......perfect..as in PERFECT..lol
first time saw him ody stunt n blur..
ahahha
I think he's notice that i keep on lookin at him..
at first i tought its just my imagination..den suddenly my fren say.....he notice..cause after that he keep on lookin at our place
waaaaaaaaaaaa
almost wan to fainttttttttttttttttttt
XDDDDDDDDDDD
hehehe

dats all i guess

7things i hate about u :) nice song..lolx

2009-08-20T06:46:00.000-07:00

I probably shouldn't say thisBut at times I get so scared
When I think about the previous
Relationship we've shared
It was awesome but we lost it
It's not possible for me not to care
And now we're standing in the rain
But nothings ever gonna change until you hear, my dear
The 7 things I hate about you! You're vain, your games, you're insecure
You love me, you like herYou make me laugh, you make me cry
I don't know which side to buy
You're friends, they're jerks
When you act like them, just know it hurts
I wanna be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love youIt's awkward and silent
As I wait for you to say
What I need to hear now
Your sincere apology
When you mean it, I'll believe it
If you text it, I'll delete itLet's be clear
Oh I'm not coming back
You're taking 7 steps here
The 7 things I hate about youYou're vain, your games, you're insecure
You love me, you like her
You make me laugh, you make me cry
I don't know which side to buy
You're friends, they're jerks
When you act like them, just know it hurts
I wanna be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love you
And compared to all the great things
That would take too long to write
I probably should mention the 7 that I like
The 7 things I like about you!
Your hair, your eyes, your old Levi's
When we kiss I'm hypnotized
You make me laugh, you make me cry
But I guess that's both I'll have to buy
Your hands in mine when we're intertwined, Every thing's alright
I wanna be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I like the most that you do
You make me love you

yish...fine la...dont care about it anyway

2009-08-18T09:31:00.000-07:00

hmmmm................................

din realise many time i posted today
haha..lol....but stilllllllllllllllll....really pissed me off...
fine la u...............................................................!!!
hish

MUM!!!!!!!!!!STOP VIEW MY BLOG!!!!!GIVE UR DAUGHTER PRIVACY PLEASE!

2009-08-18T06:38:00.000-07:00

hope u c dis.......
stop c my blog pls...............
i know anytime u will c dis..OMG

miss someone :)

2009-08-17T22:46:00.000-07:00

AHAH..

din go to chool today

i need to do my physics notes...

if i din do it ..my marks will be deduct 20 marks

wuhuu

better i start do it later

but now need to bloggin

get news upadate

hrmmm..

last night i slept about 10pm

lol

sooooooooooo freakin early ryte

hrmmm

lazy o wan to do the notes

soo many ohwr!!!!!!!!

plus i miss someone!!!!

wuhuhu...

wont tell that person oso

.....

am i really that childish?

i think so...erm

anyway...

i dont i can change it

cant wait holidayyyy

i wan to go out everyday!!!!!

out wid frens

XDDDD

den shopping!!!!!

den erm

singggggg..kbox

ahahahaha

erm..dats all i think

kk..tata...

after play my facebook game

need to do the fuckinstupidnotes==

wuhuhu...

miss '.........' T.T

lol

klalaaaaaa

laallalala

byebyebeyeybeyyebybyebybyebybeybeybe

wan change everything

2009-08-16T00:34:00.000-07:00

yesterday i was soo moody...nver been like that before

and i think i hurt my friends feeling..T.T...sorry...

ANYWAY..

i was thinking to change everything

what i mean is.

these few days ive been sooooooooo freakin sad bout that ahrggg..

promise me dat promise me this

And i was like actually believe that..what the hell??

hahaha

now i realise

i have to move on

click it if u wanna c larger :)

Anyway i just upload all my photo..my photo dat i took when my bday sweet 16 hehehe so happy that day..i do wadever i want...n i got over30 present..most of it are dolls.... i love it

i still remember all the things my fren gave to me..heheh,.....neway,,i enjoy it sooooo much......thanks to my sister...i mean my both sister...they spend about RM1500 on my sweet16bday...heheh....

now i realise..that i want to forget everything that make me sad....really need to move on yahr..hehe :)..gud luck to me yahr fren

went out wid frenz...KIMMY,KUNG KUNG,KEVIN N unknown XP

2009-08-15T09:03:00.001-07:00

TOday i went out with my fren

we went to pizza hut..then me n kimmy went to shopping together

we bought dress

mind blue n her's yellow

that dress is freakin hot wid her

mind too...hahahhaahaha...jkjk

anyway...

lotta people in our group have love problem

lol

Kev had a fight with her gal.

kimmy with..heheh..

den nick cant go out wid her gal

n me....of coz same problem

ahhaha

I almost forgot my purse at pizza hut

crazy girl

thank god..kim saw my purse,,,

im so freakin clumsy

T.T

HMMMMM

he didnt me pun

he didnt sms me

ish ish

nvm

like kimmy say...

he's not worth

theres lotta fish in the water

ahhaha

shes tellin me the truth

but only the second best i will know

Kevin n Nick go back early

so its just me n kim

we went to starbuck

we tok tok lotta things

bout her life

bout my life

bout her special one

bout my nonspecial one

lol

quite fun

we gt online again after that

after that her mum pick us at citymall

den//

dats all

hehehe

hOPE someday this necklace i will give the key to someone

so i'll keep the heart than that person keep the key

hehehe

killin me

2009-08-14T07:44:00.000-07:00

Its killin me...

its the hardest thing for me to do

to turn around and pretend that i dont love u

for all this while i tot u really the one

How come i feel that...after i forgive you.

u leave me again..

or is it im the only one who think in that way

or am i the one who act Drama queen here

if yes..

Maybe because i love u so much

if yes

den im goin to love u less

everything remind me of you

never think that i will felt this way

my heart beating so fast when i saw ur name

my heart beating so fast when i know u have someone special

special..special as in ur love one

is it because of me

is it because u change your mind

is it because i dont deserved you

you told me you loved me.

you promised me that ur not goin to hurt me

you talk sweet to me

you make me feel that im special eventhough im not

but now

your just one of my sweet memory

no matter i still love you

i dont think you wouldnt care

you tell me that you love me

but i dont hink i can believe it or not

ive been hurt twice

no more drama

my eyes so tired,everyday its leaking

for once

i want to say goodbye

but i just cant

cause i still love you

no matter how hard i want you to felt

the same way like i do

but i know

it will never work

people wouldnt fallinlove twicw with the same person

but somehow.i through it

my friend keep on support me

youve been too good to me

but

~past is past~

cant you see u mean to me

all my smile

all my laugh

i fake it

cause deep inside

im still hurt

i love you..please dont leave me again

2009-08-13T08:44:00.000-07:00

Just now he got find me...he says sorry..

that time i just woke up ..is about 10pm..i slept about almost 2hours ody..

my fren anita called me..after that i realised there are 5unopen sms..

suddenly i saw his name written in hp..i cant believe it was him...the 4 sms i just ignored...

i open his sms first...

by the time i open it..my tears start fallin..

im so sad,happy n angry

but its about 90%is happy

because i still love him and want to be with him

i really love him from the bottom of my heart.

i think bout him everyday...

u ask for forgivness n i forgive u

u say u love me n i admit i still love u oso..i want to be with you n u want to be with me oso...

but u just want to be fren.so i just say ok...

but deep down..i dun want to be just frens with u..i want to be with u...

but u say earlier this will nvr work.cz somehow u will go to aus...

to be honest...i dont take a damn all of it...u go to moon...u go to other planet....i dont care..i just want to be with u..................

but i don think u understand....

this love is killin me...ur attitude is killin me

everything bout u is killin me..

but guess what..i like it..

now were just fren but we still love each other..to me its better than nothing....

really really love u..

actually if u really love me...u will find way to work this out...

i used to call u my dear..i used to call u my love...

now i will controll myself by not callin u that

i will try my best to treat u like my fren..

no matter how hurt it is

I know theres something in the wake of your smile.I get a notion from the look in your eyes, yea.Youve built a love but that love falls apart.Your little piece of heaven turns too dark.Listen to your heartWhen hes calling for you.Listen to your heartTheres nothing else you can do.I dont know where youre goingAnd I dont know why,But listen to your heartBefore you tell him goodbye.Sometimes you wonder if this fight is worthwhile.The precious moments are all lost in the tide, yea.Theyre swept away and nothing is what is seems,The feeling of belonging to your dreams.And there are voicesThat want to be heard.So much to mentionBut you cant find the words.The scent of magic,The beauty thats beenWhen love was wilder than the wind

Happy for my BestFrennnnnnnnnnnnnnn!!!!

2009-08-13T01:57:00.000-07:00

hehe....
today im so hepy to my fren...
lol
got something happen...
well..its actually sooooooooooooo unbelieveable................
but no matter it is...im so glad to hear that..news...i think they will look good together..
hehe.each other wait for each other!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!XDDDDDD
nice o.................
heheheheheh
but got little bit jealous....cause its remind me of him...
now my fren got the feeling like..'waaaaa..cant believe dat boy as in perfect boy like me'
ahhah....got that feeling when im wid my ex...
hrmmm
but im scared my fren will get hurt....
just hope dat she will nt get hurt by that guy...but dont think he will.. :)
he look kinda good boy...

anyway...after this im goin to tuisyen
yerrrrrr..so lazyyyyy
wan stay at home sleep ohrrrrrrrrrrr
ermm

at school sooo bored oso...
din learn anything besides BI..
erm..........
yup...nothing more
just that thing........
heheh

I HATE GO TO SCHOOL

2009-08-12T03:08:00.000-07:00

i really hate go to school
damn assH3le dat boy.////
really pissed me off........
who do he think he is...HE GO N SCRACTH MY TABLE
such an assssssssssssssssssssssss
really dunnoe y he did that....
crazy thin fuckin boy............
if i dun have a heart...i probally ody write ur name here....n show it to everyone...
hope he see this....
IF ITS UR FAULT JUST ADMIT IT....!!!!!better than we caught u lied...
say people fake...please look at the mirror...seeeeeeeeeeeee ur face..see ur self....n u will see someone that trying to be cool...wan to be the bully....but guess wat...ur just lonely boy who want some attention....even ur fren says that...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
last time was different..mayb im blind that time....but helloooooooooooo..that is last year..........
Really glad to hear that ur frens themselves tell me that u r nothing widout the..n u just wan some attention.........

gosh......u really pissed me off//
be mature for sake!!!!

WAKE UP MADELINE~!

2009-08-10T06:36:00.000-07:00

today is fine...............

I woke up soo late today.yesterday i slept about 3.30 ody ==......................................my gosh...i only have 30 minutes to get ready..

im soooo sleepy....at my claz i sleep for 3period...damn..ahha

i sleep during bi n bm...

While i still sleeping.my fren suddenly give me signal..like kicking my leg..den im blur...all the my clazmate look at me n so r d teacher..den my fren beside me Serena ask me just answer RM30...actually i have no idea wad d eacher talkin about........den i just hear dey all scream..madeline one month Rn200 TUH..den i was...huh...well..dun care..i just continue my sleep.....after i woke up..i ask my frens wads it all about..then they say the teacher ask me how much i spend one month to reload...then i understand

ahah

lol

i think my excused go to school is chit chat wid frens only..

besides that i gt nothing to do...

today...teacher john caught me n anita escaped....sooooooooooooooooooooooo embarassing.....my goshhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...

aahaha

neway..he let us go....looks like we gt luck this time.......

after school........my fren suddenly tell me he gt saw my ex or still bf ...wid some girl.....n he's wearing the same shirt when he first date with me............

after knowing that.........

i feel my life soooooo over duper sad........................................................

haix..nvm him.........

haixxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

forget bout him idiot madeline

Out wid sista...

2009-08-08T06:31:00.000-07:00

not clear ==

TOday was fun..lol......went out with my sister...

i slept about almost 3am last night..chatting with my fren n watchin tv.....

My sister awake me about 9.30 am...WTF im nt freakin enough sleep...

but i didnt complain cause i scared dey wont bring me out with them later..lol

After we get ready..we went to wawasan cz my sister have appoinment with the clinique(dun know how to spell the brand) for face product....

I wait about 2hours....................So boreddddddddddddddddddddd...they discust bout that bout this..all about faceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee....totally woman...

after that we get voucher RM50..every rm 100 u purchase u can get free rm10 voucher....

den as ussual..i take the voucher from them..lol..but i didnt use it..

hmm....

Haiz..cnt believe that for all this time..me n him still together.. i really tought we break...but after my fren ask him..he say we still together....i dun know wether i wan to happy or mad...

i think its 50% 50%\\

i still didnt get it....!!!

im so freakin confused...T.T

2009-08-07T08:28:00.000-07:00

H1N1!!!

our school soon will be closed because of H1N1....

2ppl were suspected h1n1....n dey just next to my claz...scary!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

lol

MOrning

~announcement~'perhatian kepada murid,hari ini kami akan mulakan memakai mask disebabkan h1n1'

welll...not exactly that way..

but no one take a damn bout it...

but after that .....gt news about there some student positive h1n1...

den all of us..wear the mask and freaked out...

ahahaha

actually...im the one who freaked out oso..same wid anita..hahah..

we dont care bout anything...we just wear the mask while the other dont want to wear it cause they say they look ugly when they wear it...well...'HELLOO GIRLS..UR LIFE!!!!BECAUSE OF UR PRETTY OR NON PRETTY FACE U DONT WANT TO WEAR IT TO CARE UR REPUTATION' seriously..Woman..u gt some problem

lol

but neway..dont care bout them..lets move on..

Now im sick..its been twodays i didnt go to school..

im scared of that H1N1 thingy

Thank god..my mum n my dad let me didnt go to school..

lol

i think thats all for now...

need to study...its been to long i didnt touch my book n my pen....

THeres nothing else i can say

2009-08-07T08:06:00.000-07:00

I delete some of my post this recently...cause my fren Yuhua a.k.a panda a.k.a yuyu(lol) ask me to delete it...he say its for my own gud..hmmm...mayb its true..T.T
My fren gt a bad news to me yesterday..He say that 'J' give his reason y he suddenly ignored me while we still together...he say that he gt his own reason....He says that his hp got problem than he cannot contact with me..if he really want to contact with me..he will find a way to talk to me..but instead of finding it.he choosed not to stay in touch with me...when i think about it..He's really dont want to get involved in our relationship anymore..he actually can talk to me with it..'Hp cant be used anymore'that is a seriously the most terrible excused i ever heard before..
He even tell my fren by texting him that he know what im been through and he understand..
SERIOUSLY..U DUN KNOW WHAT IVE BEEN THROUGH...!!!.
tell the truth..When he did that to me..each time some other guy ask me out i will denied n give dem a lot of excused..wanna know why.??cz he havent tell me the exact result..he just leave me here n make me confused.....thats explain y i have been acting strange and aggresive these days...
I still dont know why he did that to me...is it because he goin to uk soon?he found someone new?or he just not in to me anymore?
my fren really mad at him...he told me that he was sorry cause he the one who intro me to him at first.....He want me to confront wid J...but i think its not goin to work....we cant force love..
but to be honest..i dont blame it on him....he such a good fren to me just like my brother..and actually..i want to thank him cause now i learn my lesson... :)

Study mood :)

2009-08-01T23:13:00.000-07:00

CRAZY ME!!!
haha

hehe...

long time no post..hmmm

anyway..dis few days..i busy improving my physics subject and my other school project too..

ahhaha

SHOW OFF~~~~~~~~haha..XD

Anyway..i got the mood to study cause i when i study i forget bout him...if I watch tv n everything..its remind me of him.everything remind me of him..its hurt..haix

so the only way is.....i study,study,study n study....bored actually...but thats all i can do..hrm...

SCHOOL~

my school life was okay i guess..but got this one person in my class r soooo annoying..its like i want to kill him if i have the guts..seriously..its like..when i c his face..i really want to throw something at him..grrrrr

but other than that..nothing happen..ohr ya...i forgt...My fren cried the other day..haiz..i really dun know what to do..both of my fren have a fight..i dun know which one to support..but i really cant believe my fren's ex bf sooooooooo freakin mean...he think he soo hensome untill he called my fren like dat...i think my fren 1000000000000000000% deserved more better den him..dat boy the one who is fuckin ugly..not my fren...seriously!!!!!!its like...grrrr

I just knowing that la salle n stella marris was closed because of H1N1..thats scary...hope they all ok.....need to be becarefull this time...for now..i dun wan to go out..

This few days..i addicted to Super junior...!!!!i love them.....THEY CAN DANCE N THEY R HOT.lol...after watch they mv 'sorry sorry' super junior..i really like dem..den i just figured out..what type of guys i actually like..lol...n that is..Tall,fair,stylish,can dance,play basketball(bonus)..ahahahahaha...n of coz..caring n loving..Okay..its weird i wrote this on my blog.its supposed to be secret isnt it?lol...nvm

hmmm..........bored bored...okkkkk

anyway..thats all.ahahha..........i think..

hehehehhe.

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